He left and now has gone The unanswered questions make a whole in your heart, Why? Why not? What did I do? Where do I start Your like him some say but you never knew, Your memories are hazy ,rare and few, You ll never understand how he walked away, So many times hoping he'd turn up some day, It makes a mockery that blood is thicker than water, Cos throughout your #life you where always his daughter, Time has run out and been terribly cruel, Hold your head up high and remember whose the fool? You would have enriched his #life I know that for sure, Always bright and beautiful walking through his door, But he made his choice and has paid the price, For not knowing you is a big sacrifice, Be at one with yourself you did nothing wrong, Even in the end you were the one that was strong, You offered out another outstretched hand, He made his decision and took his stand, So he s gone now and you need wait no more, The answer s are gone ,you need to shut the door! One more decision, do you want to see him rest? It's time to think of yourself not what's for the best, You wish him no ill it's not your Way, "Goodbye " perhaps a word you need To say Be strong and brave in what you decide And I ll always be right there by your side..

Weather Our weather I sit here frustrated because of the weather It's safe to say I m at the end of my tether It's windy and wet and it's becoming a pain My beautiful view it's obscured by rain Nothing to do and nowhere to go On this horrible night there is no show No lovely smells that the summer does bring And the birds are hiding not willing to sing They say our summer will be in September But last year they said the same as I remember I m determined it's not going to bring me down In self pity I could surely drown So I m venturing out to hell with it Running in the wet I ll sure get fit So up I get trainers ready And off I jog at a pace that's steady So dear weather you won t get to me Keep this up and I ll be as fit as a flea xx

To Mum And Dad I m not a parent so to understand is hard for me Your children don t speak and you can t see That you can fall out with anyone you pick as a friend But your sibling s can Hurt you right til the end They say blood is thicker than water So I want to shout I m still your daughter I love both of you in a very special way But am sensitive to the words that you say You can make me smile and laugh out loud And of you I m protectively proud I guess you will never be totally at ease As I can t forgive my brother so please Let me be your child youngest of two Who will forever look out for the both of you I ll visit and cook and garden and care I ll keep close by phone if I ve gone somewhere I ll be there to enjoy your moods every one But don t ask me to share them with your son For the past makes us what we are today And I know you d not like what I could say So keep seeing him for his good side is fine And try to accept the best side of mine We both love you of that there is no doubt But this is not the problem it's not what it's about You have to stop making me feel I m to blame For our problems have longevity and I know he feels the same The difference is confidence and he has a lot Even probably my share he got For he can turn up and be all cool Making me look like an overeacting fool I m sorry I ve seemed to let you down again Believe me when I say that it's not just you in pain I ll continue to seek your approval, it's my way And I will love you unconditionally that's all I got left to say x. By helene x

#quote I believe you can't plan your future until you've sorted out your past .....

Cringe A long time ago now I can remember working with my brother and father in our family business. The three of us were standing around the counter. My brother was busily looking through catalogues and writing an order for a company. My dad and I were chatting he was still teaching me how to become a good sales rep and pointing out to me that you should always be polite and courteous to everyone even the ones you didn t like or couldn t get on with. The phone rang and my brother answered at the same time my father was telling me a tale of how he handled a rep he couldn't stand. My brother was pulling faces behind me as my father continued to tell me of this guy Dave who he said was an irritating fat bloke My brother broke our chat and said dad its for you and handed him the phone. Cringing my brother walked away. Hello said Dave it's the irritating fat bloke ........