##quote Don't you find it funny that, people who talk about other people feel worse about themselves then the people they hurt?

Unloved Woman She always comes around to these men's door knocking for sex. always sex, sex, sex, she swallows her sorrows with straight vodka to ease the pain away, she is always so slow but gets busy with meth. When i see her she's always asking for money, and would spear her last breath for Xanax. She is an unhappy woman who doesn't know how stop the addiction and continues to out of nowhere panic. Its sad because she used to be a scholar in school and now she is totally wasted and has these men treating her like a fool. She thinks the pain is going away, but really its only for the moment and she thinks these men love her but its just for yet again the moment. The money she makes doesn't last very long and the people she knew are forever gone, she threw her #life away and drove her friends and family away, now all she has is the booze, pills , and the men, what she thinks means everything

Goodbye, Stranger.. Yeah we know you didn't stick around for me or us, you didn't care about love or trust you just left me all alone with no one to hold and you said your sorry but i heard that years ago and i dont want you to hold me back with all of your crap, I'm pretty sure you don't regret any of that. So its time i let go of you no more excuses, no more lies, no more tries yes you blew you chances so i believe its time to say goodbye. All my tears are slowly running dry, so this is for all the times that i've tried. Im tired of letting you take advantage of me now its time for me to do me. You only popped up when you needed something and now someone else is taking your place and they are the reason my heart has suddenly been pumping. So i'm going forget you now, and erase you from my memory from here on out.

Autism On October 25, 2011 my family and i found out that my 2 year old sister has Autism. Its kind of a struggle because she couldn't talk to tell us what she wanted, or what she felt, she has social problems and doesn't like anyone but who she knows around her. I've caught my mother crying a few times, because she blames herself for my sister having autism, and she gets upset because my sister can't say "momma" like the rest of us did. She knows its not my sister's fault but my mother wants to hear her baby's voice and she can't. Im completely fine with my sister having autism, i treat her the same as i do with everyone else, with me she doesn't get special attention unless it's important. Over the last two years my sister has learned a few words like "stop", "go" , "no", "hi" ,"bye", "dad", and the one that puts a smile on my mothers face, "Mom". she has been warming up to new faces as well. This year we found out that the child after my sister has autism as well and might have Apraxia. He is two now going on three, he doesn't talk but he is quite a fighter. He doesn't like when people play with his toys or anything he likes, he loves cars and he only knows how to say a few words also like, "stop", "no", "mom", and "dad". Sometimes i think he just might have apraxia, because he struggles to say words. I hope he doesn't but i think he might. Having a brother and sister with autism is hard, this month my sister grabbed a chair from the kitchen and brought it to the front door, she unlocked the door and went outside at 30 am. Everyone in the house was sleeping and our neighbors brought her back they told us she went to McDonalds on the corner if our street. Then two days later i slept downstairs to guard the front door with the couch. My sister must have super strength because she pushed the couch out of the way and unlocked everything, went to our neighbors house, walked right in and sat on their couch. They thought somebody broke in their home but when they came down they saw my sister sitting down watching t.v. So thats when we got a new lock, there is a huge bolt lock on our door and she hasn't been out since plus we lock her in her room at night now. People in our family were saying she might get taken away by family services, but we talked to her teachers and they said they cant take her because she has been diagnosed with autism and we did try to prevent it. And due to them having autism my mother made a FB page for autistic children, you can send them cards, gifts, just anything they like its called The Last Piece Of The Puzzle Autism. So living in a house with autistic children isn't that bad.

Gone Im in deep, I'm down deeper than i thought. Why must you put me through this, why must you make me feel bad about myself? Why do you make me not want to exist and wish my father had just put a condom on that night. Why do you ruin my #life, and make me feel like a waste. Because of you drinking is all i can resort to. Im young, i should be having fun not sitting around drinking down the pain that i suffer from. Its a matter of time until i grab that 9 and put it to my head. You made me do this, you're the reason everyone doesn't want to be around me anymore, I've turned into a grouch day in and day out. I hate you, you cruel bastard all you ever did was put these things in my head, they are now controlling me and my actions. What i do, what i say all the time everyday i want the pain to just go away. So here i go......