Some Day One day I'll learn to dance in my shame. One day Their frowns won't make my heart collapse. Some day I'll have the power you held over me. Some day I won't feel anymore where your hands touched me. One day I'll stare the devil in the eye and walk the other way. One day I shall lift my arms up high as I feel your weight evaporate.

Toxic Desire Toxic desires Both you and I know. Tainted our lives In black and blue. I suppose we were the ones To tread on land mines. Only seven when we learnt To suffocate our minds. I wonder who made you Do what you did to me? #life's a vicious circle We're forced to set ourselves free. I see children play Like their problems are leaves. They'll run around While they pass in the breeze. You and I, We'll look up and pray for a second chance.

Forgiven I watched myself from above, As you redefined the word 'love'. I saw you as you swallowed my heart, And your conscience prepared it's depart. You didn't care- When I couldn't breathe If only you knew what you've defined, My memories are a field of landmines. My stomach still burns- When I'm reminded of you. They ask me who's to blame, I'll bet we all say the same- But I'll close my eyes, And pray that you're happy now.

Made for me too Maybe romance- Won't always make my skin crawl. Maybe I can be with a man, And not be reminded. Maybe my heart will dance, Instead of thunder. Perhaps I won't fear- A mans hands or strength. Perhaps my heart will rejoice to the sound of his voice. Maybe this part of #life, Was made for me too? Maybe I shall not live in fear, After all? Perhaps men's hands, Will no longer beckon- My bitter sweet fantasy. Maybe a man, Can glance me in the eye. And the ice in my soul- Won't numb me anymore. Perhaps my body would rest, In a man's presence. My legs wouldn't itch with fear- But my heart would sing a lullaby.

Never Wanted to Know I never wanted to know, What your hands would feel like upon my skin. Your lips pushing into my mouth and breath brushing my neck. I never wanted to know. I never wanted to feel your weight - Pinning me to the hard dry ground. Your large cold hands like clamps to the dirt. I never wanted to know. I never wanted to feel so alone, As a kid left unwatched with a monster. I was a child -