Disabled love Disabled love Being a disabled can't even think of having a boyfriend. Don't even dare to like any guy because I know that I can't even tAke care of myself so what can I do for the guy I love!!? There is a guy I really love but he has some one in his heart so no matter how many times I told him I love him, all I have the answer is he only treat me as a young sister even though I am older than him for one year. I still remember the first time I met him was at my first job office yes he was my colleague. The first met him I thought he was very cool and quiet but after talking with him on msn I find him quite cute and funny but that time I don't like him but just treat him as a friend. We talked almost everything at that time he will tell me his problems and I will tell him mine. Then we started to go out with other friends and he will always look after me as I walk very slow and unstable. So he make me feel secure with him. For eg he will wheel his wheel chair in front of me when it s too crowded to block people from knocking me down. After awhile I found myself getting jealous when I see him talking with other girls so I told Him my feeling but at that time I was not sure about my feeling so I keep asking him why I felt jealous then he told me I maybe start to love him but he has some one else in his heart already. But I was still hoping one day he can see how much I love him and during this period I become very sensitive and unreasonable. I will keep asking him what he doing or get angry when he ignore me or not do what I want him to do. But I wasn't able to control myself I don't know why. Maybe true that love can make one crazy. But now I know that no matter what I do he will not like me so all i can do is to keep my love for him deep in my heart. And continue be his friend and stay beside him and support him to chase the girl he loves even though it hurts in my heart but if he is happy it is all worth. I hope that his health will be better and get Marry like other guys and have a happy family. Being a disabled not only have physically challenges but I have to disabled my love too as I know that I can't love anyone or be together with anyone.
