Drowning It all out Your bitter words Are enough To make me S i n k A heavy melody To block the pain Or sweet sorrowful lyrics To encourage the tears Perhaps this time The despair Is too much Perhaps this time Nothing Will be enough My heart is Bursting through My chest It's screaming For you to S t o p Stop the fights That leave me burning Stop the hurt That leaves me bruised Perhaps this time The despair Will end Perhaps this time Something Will be enough

[I'd heard of you] I'd heard of you the boy with the broken family cry me a fucking river we all have our shit. you wander through lies through tears and deception to finally get to me and I naively let you take me away from everything away from everyone. your broken smile becomes my home this feels so wrong but yet so right. so much undiscovered pain comes out to haunt me as well as the scissors I kept hidden in my drawer. I don't know who I am or what I want anymore we are both unfaithful we are both bad people in love. but you left me, drowning in a pool of our salty tears where I fell helplessly into #depression, paranoia, anxiety. and in the end it was your demons that destroyed me.

a brown leather notebook a brown leather notebook concealed our secrets, our broken memories, your empty promises & my naive optimism. tell me, because I wonder where that notebook is now. do you ever read it? perhaps as often as I think about it. does it live amongst the shameful items in your drawer of guilt? along with the drugs along with the lies, along with my heart. that brown leather notebook concealed our secrets.

real #life you tell me you've seen real #life where people don't judge, where everyone is happy. naivety. I tell you that this is real #life everywhere has its sorrow, nobody is happy. truth. you can't just run from your demons in the end they will catch you, and destroy you. reality. you can't just allow your demons to catch other people, tell me, who is really happy?

nothing nothing is worth your tears ~ your tears are worth nothing