help Sometimes I think it'd be easier to just die, pass away, croak. Leave the anxiety, stress and immense overwhelming feelings. I feel crazy, and like I have nobody to talk to When in reality I do, I'm just too stubborn to admit I have a problem. I don't want to disappoint my family. I don't want to sit down and talk to a stranger or take pills Some people think it's 'cool' to be depressed so they display it, they let everyone know they take pills or see a shrink or whatever I think the truly hurting people try to hide it. They put on a lovely face, interact and smile But when they go home they breakdown, and cry and cry and cry for hours then put themselves back together and go about the '#life' they have If a #life at all

Envy? I want nothing more than perfect for my wonderful friend. But my dear, envy sets in. I'm losing him, to a girl and it's crashing my world. Friends before girlfriends, is that how it goes? Maybe it's only a show. I'm envious of her spending time with my dear friend, but I want nothing more than for him to be happy. Sorry this actually sucks.

Oh Love Love Love I’d like to find someone who likes me for me, flaws and all, someone who will proudly tell the world that I am the one. Someone who will kiss me because they love me. Someone who will treat me wonderfully and isn’t just using me for sex. Someone who I can be my silly self with, but also someone I can be serious with. Someone who will watch old movies with me. Someone who will help me with math, even if they’re not good themselves. Someone who won’t freak out when they see a few scars. Someone who will accept my mind and everything in it and why I’ve done the things I’ve done. Someone who will just love me through everything. I know I’m young, but young people need to love and be loved too.

Missing I'm missing something, and I can't quite piece together what that is..

How Do How do I go on? When nothing makes me happy anymore. How do I fight? When all the battles have been lost How do I try to look at the positive? When the negative clouds my mind and memory's How do I look at you? When all I see in you is betrayal How do I look at myself? When all I see is disappointment, regret and loneliness How do I forget? When all I can do is remember How do I leave it all, when all I do is love it.