Eyes Close When I close my eyes I'm scared of what I'll see A girl that loves when others cry A sick and evil twisted version of me When I close my eyes I'm scared of what I'll dream Dreams where everything I love dies Because of something I did but didn't mean When I close my eyes I'm scared of what I'll hear So many convincing lies Every one something that I fear When I close my eyes I'm scared of what I'll feel All the pain of unwanted goodbyes So many realities I wish were unreal When I close my eyes I'm scared of what might happen Against all of my valiant tries If again they never open

Goodbye “Goodbye.” With that I turned around and walked away, shredding my heart more with every step I took. I missed him already. All I wanted was to turn back and run into his arms again, to breathe him in one more time. But I knew it was for the best that I didn’t. Him and I, we were never supposed to be together. Getting into the relationship, I knew it wasn’t going to last. But still…. I had hope. Hope that he would be mine, and I would be his. Hope that when I got married, the man in the tux across from me would be him. Hope that he would be my last first kiss. Hope that this moment would never come. But now I know it was inevitable. I believe I did this for the best. Not so much for me as for him. He deserved better, a girl who would be home to say hello when he opened the door. A girl who would always put him first. A girl who he could trust with all of his problems. A girl who will care about him as much as I do, but can actually prove it. He deserved a girl who just wasn’t me, a girl that I knew I could never be. He promised he would never walk away from me, but I never made the promise back. Deep down, I guess I knew that he would deserve better, and that he wouldn’t see it. Deep down, I knew that I would be the bringer of my own heartbreak. Deep down, I knew that I would need to be the one to say… “Goodbye.”

Don't Go The pain deep inside her Makes her whole #life a big blur That very rare smile Only lasts her a while It’s never too long Til all she sees is wrong She knows nothing ever lasts Can only get ready for the crash Just hoping to be found Before she completely drowns She’s crying out for help Needs someone to bring her back from hell Before she sinks down too far Before she gets burned to a char Hoping for that one quiet whisper From that one quiet listener For that one person To just tell her “Please...hold on...stay strong… don’t go… Please… I need you…”

Letting Go Sometimes it's the best option, Others times it's not. Sometimes letting go is the only choice you've got.

Miss You Already Dedicated to... You know who you are. I miss The way you laugh, The way you smile. The way you made my heart soar for miles. The way you walk, The way you dance. The way you made me feel in a trance. The way you love, The way you care. The way you always bounced in your chair. The way you rap. The way you speak, The way you were always so unique. The way you joke, The way you made me feel unsteady. Can't you tell? It's only been a few days, but I miss you already.