Dormant You know when you wake up from a long hazy dream and your mouth is dry, you're cold and then you try to turn over to get comfy and go back to sleep again but.. wires are tugging on me and i .. i cant move well. My whole body feels like bruised. I flash my eyes open and everything is blurry. But i get even more agitated when i hear a loud beeping noise coming from next to me and then i remember. Everything. As I'm sat there, wherever i am, everything goes through my head. My name is Hailee. I'm 16. I live in Shropshire with my mum, Jane and my little sister, Natasha. It's 2013. The world is in crisis. We are about to go to war against them.. There was a doctor. Doctor James. He said it would be much safer for me to be hidden, dormant. My mum cried for me as i was taken away and i fought to get back to her. I was scared. Anyone would b- - - - - A nurse approached me and she went straight for my arms forcing me down, her hands burned onto my skin like hot irons. I couldn't move, i yelped but instead started choking on the realization of how dry my throat was. She pressed a red button on the wall as more doctors and nurses rushed into the room. I was in hospital. But why? Did something happen? I lifted my arm to stop one of the doctors who was about to touch my neck and then i saw my skin. Blue and the veins showing through them. I tried to yelp again but it just came out sounding like a cat being brutally murdered, i started to choke again. Another nurse turns round and shoves a needle into my arm, i start to go drowsy. Part of something i started writing. Idk if it's any good. I'll c+p this soon and do a bit more obviously and stuff but yeah umm.. sorry!

Selfish I'm being a little selfish tonight. Thinking 'bout me instead of worrying over you. Thinking about wondering off into the distance and going off into a blur. I dont wanna come home, just let me go.

It's raining again. I sit here, notepad clear, pen in hand. I want to figure this out. Get this sorted, here and now. But i cant get my words out, i cant do anything. I dont want to go back to that feeling. The feeling that I'm going to fall, clinging onto the edge by my fingers. You just.. you make me feel like this. It isn't meant to be like this; Friends make you smile, help you though the bad times.. but you're putting me though a bad time. I want to let go.

Shoelaces I want to disappear into the world i am drawing. Stay there for a while. Maybe i wont come back. I just want some time to figure stuff out, morn my losses. And if you're gone by the time i get back. My heart will surely break again.

Puzzle pieces that dont quite fit. I'm sick and tired of missing you. Of missing us. Of missing what we were. We both grew up. We were made to but i just dont understand what happened to us? And what we used to be. I just want it to be you and me.