Sleep Sometimes it's hard to find, sometimes impossible. Sometimes there are reasons it doesn't come to you and sometimes there aren't. Sometimes it completely overwhelms you, welcomed or not. It can steal the best part of your day away, or it can leave you thinking all through the night. Right now- I would welcome it with open arms and embrace it. But sleep does not exist for me anymore. I'm forced to lie awake and think of my #life or philosophical situations for hours on end and it drives me mad. But sleep isn't the kind of thing you can take control of. It is something which you expect to happen, and you must trust its occurrence each night. You must appreciate it or it will disappear- and it's at this point you'll regret all the times you've stayed awake for no good reason. All I want is some sleep. But then when you do sleep it can engulf you and it will refuse to release you back into the world. I don't mind if sleep would do that for me now- I just need a rest from my mind for a few nights.

What Is Said Sometimes, you're told something. Something that changes your #life drastically. This thing should upset you or anger you. But it doesn't. You shrug it off. You think nothing of it and carry on. Then later on, be it minutes, hours, days, or even weeks, what was said finally sinks in. You realise exactly what that thing means, and how it affects you. And you lose control. You cry hysterically and scream at people. You didn't think it would ever happen, but it does. And when it does, you see, truly, that the person that made you like this, the person that has reversed your world, you see just how much you hate them. At first, you assess this person, and they pass as a genuine friend. But then after, it brings into light every tiny detail of their personality. It shows you how much people can hide, it shows you the underlying evil and cruel nature that lives in every human being. But to rid them of this trait, is to rid them of their humanity. It is what makes humans, humans. There is nothing you can do to stop it. And that's when you realise how little you actually value your place on this earth. Every single person has this inside of them, no matter how good they might seem on the outside. It reveals how worthless #life is, because with a simple thing that is said, which changes so much for so many people, it tells you that there is no point to our existence.