Chances |6| I smiled and then I asked "so are you guys related?" Haley looked at Harry and frowned, "Unfortunately, he is my step-brother" Harry clenched his heart and gasped..."that stung a little" he cries, dramatically wiping an imaginary tear from his eye. I chucked as he pretended to weep. Resting his head on the table. Suddenly I heard a feminine voice call from in front of me. "Harold, you idiot, stop crying and come help me with these books!" Harry's head shot up and he ran to her...a slight glint in his eye. He grabbed onto both Lit. Books she was carrying and brought them to the table. "I can't believe he bribed me with food so I could carry his books too." she said and she shook her hands, hoping for the pain to go away. "He knows you too well...." Haley giggled. "...yeah well..." and she finally turned to me and I could see that she was surprised to see me. I knew her...she had been in my Art class last year and she had talked to Her. The smile Daisy had on her face slowly faded but then quickly came back, she didn't want to seem rude. "Jake! Hey. How are you? How've you been?" she asked and I knew what she meant and I couldn't help but look down but then realize that I had actually been doing fine. "Uh...Better actually. I'm doing better." And for the first time I gave a genuine smile because I was actually feeling a happy emotion. "That's great! Uhm hey Haley can you take Harry here to my car and make him get my wallet?" "Sure but I can just go by myself..." "No I just want Harry to go because I know how much he LOVES walking" she said. The sarcasm dripping out. Harry gave her a glare while she gave him a cute smile and they were off. Leaving us alone. She sat in front of me and turned very serious...and asked, "Are you really okay?" and she placed her hands over mine..

Nothing Today I think I can say has been a crappy day. I just feel as if I don't belong. I just feel like there is nothing to do and there will be nothing to do. Nothing is fine. Nothing will be solved tomorrow. My emotions are inside and they are crying but physically I am not. What is there to do except do nothing. I am nothing and I will be nothing. I will fail at #life an I will die alone. This is how I felt the whole day. I AM NOT DEPRESSED. I'm just tired and bored. Things need to change and I would like them too. My #life has become a routine again and I hate it. I need to feel emotion: hurt, happiness, fright, love, sadness and frustration. Now it is time to sleep and HOPE that everything becomes better in the morning. But I know they won't.

You Don't Understand You don't understand. You don't feel what they feel. You don't know what they have been through. You don't know their insecurities. You don't know their story. You don't know their struggles. You don't know their background. You don't know their abilities. You don't know who THEY really are. You don't know if they are considering it. You don't know how many people they will impact when they are gone. You will never understand that your judgmental stares still hurt. You will never get over the fact that you bullied them and caused them to go over the edge. You don't understand how much I HATE judgment. You don't understand how much I HATE bullying. Make someone's day and tell them they are BEAUTIFUL. That is all.

Loving You {three} I stopped and took a quick breath...I wasn't quite done telling him why I was here. He looked the same his face was stone cold... "And then there's me. Stupid, Stubborn and Bitchy. Me. That's how I feel right now. I left you broken hearted with your heart on your sleeve and I feel like sh*t now. I went home and I decided that I had to tell you what I felt before you left." I looked at him while I kept speaking and his face had slightly softened but I couldn't see the tender eyes I fell in love with.... "and now, I guess, that's it. Im here soaking wet and you know everything that I felt about you in less that five minutes." I chuckled lightly but he just stared at me blankly. I started to walk towards the door and stopped right before it and turned around...he hadn't moved, he was still in his living room staring at the wall opposite from him. "you don't have to tell me that you love me back I just felt as if I NEEDED to tell you this before you left...I love you. Please don't ever think that you weren't good enough, Nick. You are perfect and I wish you the best..." I smiled at that last statement...I sounded like Adele. I opened the door and walked down the stairs and headed to the last floor to open the door to the street. I got to the door again and looked back to see....nothing. My heart fell to the floor...he wasn't going to run after me...I sighed deeply and opened the door to hear the rain. I got to the street and walked slowly with my hood on... Was it weird that I felt cleansed? I was about 2 blocks away from Nick's house when suddenly I heard rapid footsteps..."probably just someone trying to get out of the rain" I thought to myself. Until I heard my name being shouted.... - - -

Loving You {two} "I-I-I uhh I found out uhm uhh...."I couldn't do it. He stared at me and I could feel a slight glare come into his eyes... I had already told him that morning that I couldn't have anything serious with hime because 'love' never worked for me. "Please hurry I need to wake up in 4 hours to go to the airport and I would like to actually sleep" he sneered as his foot tapped impatiently. That's right! He was leaving and I totally forgot... That morning he had asked me to go with him so I could meet his parents and I said No. I didn't want to go because I didn't want to get attached and then end up more hurt after we broke up... I took a deep breath and let it all come out...this was the last time I was gonna see him. "I found our why and how I fell in love with you" I stated as he looked at me...serious "Look I don't have time for this I have to--" I cut him off. "Oh Shut Up and listen! You make me feel helpless and you treat me like I'm the only person that can make you smile or laugh. You are the total opposite of my father and I love that about you. You want me around you all the time and you make me feel like the only girl in the world. The way you smile warms my heart and give me butterflies. Your eyes are so tender and caring and I never see any sign of annoyance in them. When you hold me in your arms I feel safe and I feel as if we can take the whole world and nothing will stop us...we would end up on top. Basically it was just you and the way that YOU are. You don't pretend to be someone you are not...Plain and simple. I Love YOU!" - - -