No regrets. It is what it is #life is to be lived to the fullest with no regrets, no looking back and wallowing in what was. As you get older and age slows you down don't regret mistakes made. It is what it is. At one point the things you did in your youth are yours and yours alone.they may have been things done in the spur of the moment.The rush from being bad and sneaking out to go to a party knowing your parents said no. Those things are what made you grow up and be the person you are today. Live #life with no regrets because at the end of your #life it is what it is and you can't change those things.

So angry, yelling louder and louder the screams echo violently in my ears. Then I realize no one can hear it because it's all in my head. No one understands the grief I hide within. No one can know I'm falling apart. Outside the world keeps moving people sit around me laughing and talking while inside I'm loosing it. I feel like I lost something and can never get it back. Can someone fix it, make it go away and never come back?

Looking out the window memories pass or is it time that passes. Memories of the little girl laughing and playing with the boy under a green oak tree. The next scene that passes of another memory, your first date for homecoming you laughing holding your dates hand. The next memory is of years later when childhood passed. Young adults sharing our first job sitting across from one another working side by side always at each others side. Flash forward the next scene my swollen belly and your hand gently caressing it talking to my child. Excitement in your eyes anticipating the arrival of your best friends child. The last and final scene you in your casket days before my child's arrival. Looking away from the window seeing my child fills me with love and deep sadness for the memories she'll never have of her mothers bestfriend.

You can spend your whole #life surrounded by people and still feel alone. You can smile and move forward but inside you dying bit by bit. I just want love something for nothing that doesn't make me feel alone.

Forever is a long time, especially when your five and you feel like you have the world in your hands. As we grow we either choose to lose our inner child or we thrive and let it grow shaping who we are and it helps lead us to where we go in #life.