And And you taught me what this feels like And then how it feels to lose it And you showed me who I wanted to be And then who I wasn't And you ticked every box And then you drew a line And you weren't mine to begin with And then not to end with And you looked like everything I wanted And then something I hated And you get thought of every day And then not in a good way And you let me leave And then wish I'd stayed And you almost killed me But I didn't die.