Just Some Beginnings 1. Becoming startled... She woke up, but where was she? It's dark, cold and the room has an odor of soured dried sheets. 2. Walking. Walking. Walking. That's all he ever did. Music playing. Drowning out the real world; letting him control what his mind thinks. Peace. He is at peace. Then he arrives... 3. She sits on the floor at the mess she has made. At all the broken promises and all the memories of the people who haven't given up on her. They realize that she is a hopeless lost cause. A freak. They were right. They are always right. Once again she has fought her battle and she has lost and they have won. Why should she fight? Why should she try to settle the score? 4. As she flips through her childhood, she wonders where she went wrong. Where did it all go wrong? Did it and was this her true destiny. Then de comes across a letter. When did this get here, she thought as she opened it and read... She wanted to stop it all sounded like nonsense but yet she kept reading on and on. Was this the truth or more lies to add to her already hidden #life.

Why? You scare me. You make me Trust you so easily. I tells you things, I don't tell my closes friends. You scare me.. But you promised.. I would never get hurt by you. And I believed you. I still do. But you have hurt me? So why do I? I don't know either.

Bye, Bye She lies awake, while everyone else dreams sweet dreams. She knows by now to just stay awake. To save her self from her nightmares. Yet she believes she's doing the right thing but her demons are stronger. They fight harder and they take control.Over her mind, her body and she does nothing to stop it. It's just another rerun. She is to be saved by the sun. She then rushes to cover them away, hide them. To keep them out of sight. She doesn't want to raise alert. It's make it easier for her to ignore the pain.To make it all go away. Night has fallen away. The sun has saved another lost, empty, damned soul for a day. She plasters that fake smile on. Once again. She waits for her hero to run away. As she starts her battle again, yet she feels weaker than last. She is scared knowing that this is her last battle. She can't do it any longer. She wants, needs peace. This time she prepares her notes. Telling everyone to not blame their selfs. For they tried to help, but she was already to far gone.. She prepares..... Then she's gone.

I'm Always Too Late I just want all of this pain to go away. I want to know that every thing is going to be okay. That I'm going to be strong enough... I want to know everything happens for a reason.. I want to feel safe from myself, I want to know that I still have a fighting chance.. I want this, but once again I'm too late..

Update Hi, everyone. I am sorry about not posting in a really long time, things have gotten pretty hard for me and I lost all inspiration to do anything. Things are still pretty hard but I'm trying to reach then light at the end of my darkness.