Suffering You know what is time consuming? I questioned myself. Having all this feelings and sometimes i just think i will burst out. This rotten feelings poisoning me from the inside and i just cant handle it. At least thats how i feel now. Sometimes I wish i would be something else so i wont have feelings. I just cant control it. Maybe i just feel sorry for myself too much. I should stop bringing up these memories with him. It seems even the good memories turned into bad ones. Or maybe i just like when it hurts. Or I'm a totally nut case. I wish to erase just for one day. Just to feel peace inside. Looking out my window and seeing all this snow, everything is crystal white. Seems so calm and peaceful. I wanna be like that. My own stupid feelings suffocates me from the inside there is too much and because i couldn't give it out i have too keep inside all this love and it kills me. I let the tires run on my face and my vision to get blur.