Relf Sittin in the passenger seat, I watch the cars lights shine through the rainy window as each car passes. Each time I have the same thoughts. "An other car could come into the lane and end everythig" Strangly that always comes to me in a sigh of relf.

Empty Love(work in progress) You use to be so perfect. I thought you were the best for me. Now that you have me everything has changed. I'm trying hard for your attention. All I want is you to treat me the way you did before when you made me feel like the prettiest girl in the world. Now I feel like I'm not good enough, sitting here wondering if you even care. I stick around even though I hate this feeling you're giving me. I'm waiting hoping thing are gonna change and you will treat me like the girl you use to want so bad. Things I'll never forget are the sweetest words you said to mean and the darkest silents you gave me. You were different than the others? Yet I'm sitting here with this empty feeling inside just like I did with all of them. This feeling is the worst. I want to let you go , but I can't. The feeling gets worse when you're gone. I think I love you. But I hate you cause you seem to not care for me as much as I care for you. You're my world and I'm just the rag you cleanup with. I wonder if anything you said meant anything or if it was all just a chase for a girl and once the chase was over you had no interest. I always am here in the end wondering why when I fall for them they stop having interest. That emptiness inside is enough to cause my downfalls. I start to see days as a fog that you have to get through. #life seems blank. I want to be happy but I don't know how. Faking is entertaining keeps my mind of the fog but in the end no true happiness lyes. I know I felt happiness with you.You stopped needing me and I started needing you, as I was there for you , you were to busy for me. And the unwanted ,punneeded , emptiness feelings came with time as you didn't even care to say goodnight.

You loved the chase ,then had no intrest in the catch.