Who Will I Be? Kinda wish I was dead, kinda wish that I wasn't. Fighting myself, always. Will I be king or peasant? Signed, ThoseMeaningfulWords

I'm A Gentleman. I am a gentleman, it's the soft touch that gets her. A serene touch, giving her goosebumps. I love to tease, watch as the anticipation begins to rise in her. Watch as she begins to crave you. A single touch of passion, ignites a fire in her. I touch all of the right places at all of the right times. I build her up. I just let that fire go ablaze. I'm not going to be rude, remember I'm a gentleman so, ladies first. Signed, ThoseMeaningfulWords. VH.

Limbo Limbo; what does that word mean to you? Limbo; I'm not here nor there. I'm in a space where time does not exist, I've taken a step out of this box. This box we call reality. Changing my views from a first person perspective to a third person perspective. Reality check; there is a lot more going on in this world than you think. There is a lot more going on in this world that you don't see. I thought I could see everything with eyes wide open. I thought, oh, I thought wrong. I can see everything now with eyes closed shut. I thought I could see everything, I believed my perception was precise. With eyes closed shut leading me to enter limbo has me slowly slip away from reality. I dare not to slip away completely. I only dare to see who I really am. I will depart this vessel when the time comes, I am physically mortal. I've known that for a long time but have I known the being within this human vessel? I have not, I was only concentrating on the physical world. I was only concentrating on what I could see with my eyes. How naive, how narrow minded. Limbo; a space between reality and oblivion. That is the place where I learned who I really am. I've gone to a place where an epiphany had occurred. My eyes have been shut this whole time not knowing who I am. Limbo; the place where I finally opened my eyes, the place where I finally opened my mind. Signed, ThoseMeaningfulWords. VH.

Monster. The monster you saw at night creepily planning to get you under your bed as you fell asleep at night was just all your fear of the unknown holding you back from all the success you could achieve. Signed, ThoseMeaningfulWords. VH.

Responsibilities Taken By A King Friday, May 12th 2017; 12:15pm Personally, there has been a huge change in me. In my attitude, my drive and my mood. I am motivated. Man, I really had myself believing I was doing better and changing.. All that talk, that's all it was. I made promises I know I couldn't follow through with. How pathetic, believing all of my own lies. Hurting my wife was all I was doing, I really do and always have loved her; I always will. Consumed by my selfishness has built walls between my wife and I. I am at fault, I always have been. I ran out of sorry ass excuses, I ran out of boundaries of my wife's trust. I never want her to feel insecure, unconfident or ever hate herself. There is blood in my hands, so much blood. I pointed the finger elsewhere when she asked about the crimson red blood on my hands.. This blood is crimson red from all of he lies, excuses and betrayal. I pointed and. Lanes things that were transparent, just made up. Finally, I have pointed out the true villain. A finger dripping with blood pointed directly at the man in the mirror. It saddens me coming to realize how much destruction I have caused. The pain I caused to the one I truly love from the selfishness, addiction and neglectfulness really just struck me down. I can't say I feel your pain baby, but I am done with causing you pain. We are a whole, to finally have open eyes and see how numb I have been to all the hurt that I have caused you left me in a state of despondent. I am disappointed in myself, I am angry with myself. I should be but I will not allow myself to did this hole I let myself get trapped into. I'm done talking to myself, I am done feeling sorry for myself. All that talk were just words spoken with untruthfulness. It's a shame. It's a real shame. It really made me happy to hear you say that you actually see progress. There may be change but I know I must walk the walk. If I do talk I must follow up with walking upon those words I say. I wasn't putting in so much effort into our marriage which only is leading you to feel gassed out. I'm sorry it took this long... It takes two, together we need to put effort into us. Let me show you I can take that extra weight you have been carrying around. Let me show you I am the one. I am the one here to show you that will put in my part and extra if I have to. I only want to help my wife, my marriage. You want #life to be simple, I will do my best to do so being one of the most complex human beings. Simple is how #life should be, I really made things so much more complicated than they really were. I hope I have shown more progress, I hope I have been following through with what I say. I'm not perfect, I know that and you don't expect perfection. You need honesty, affection, love and care. I'm doing my best, in so over "trying" now, I am doing. I have made mistakes and will make more but I will give you all of the things needed in a marriage. You're my main priority, my number one. My queen will reign in our kingdom with a king that has taken responsibility for his mistakes, whether they be minor or major. I will give maximum effort into building our kingdom together. In our marriage I only hope there be growth. My queen, don't let go, I'm still holding on so tightly... Signed, ThoseMeaningfulWords. VH.