The Trip My family and I went on a trip with our church members. Me being close with my church members, you'd think I will be part of the big fun they have. But really sometimes I don't. Sometimes I just feel like there's a gate between me and everyone around me. The only people to be able to pass through the gate are my friends. Sometimes I just feel out of place, especially when my best friends aren't there. People think that just because they have fun with a person means that they're friends, but really they're not. Having fun with someone doesn't mean that they're your friends immediately. A real friend is found during the time when you're having the least fun in your entire #life. The real friends come when your usually sad. That's how I feel when im around people. I usually think if I can let them pass the gate or not. If they pass they are the people who saw my vulnerable side. Those who don't see it, well they don't pass my gate. If you can notice I have trusting issues. I don't really trust anyone that much. I know that trusting someone too much can hurt. And I'm afraid of getting hurt. I just need help from someone to learn to trust.
