Guilt is a five letter demon that holds so much weight It bends and breaks minds at such a quick rate Guilt and I have become a pair Imbedded in my core, a home we share Guilt sleeps in my heart on a bed of pain It wakes randomly and takes strolls through my brain Guilt came to me some months ago Inserting its presence right in my soul I hated Guilt at first, begged it to leave But now it's all I know and see Guilt likes to hug my lungs and make it hard to breathe And I can't help but give in, I could never leave Guilt has become a part of me, as I have become a part of it I've accepted this fate and buried it in my pit Before now, I had rarely encountered Guilt But a #life of it and misery is what I've built All I can say is I'm sorry that I'm this way There's not much I can do because Guilt has led me astray My heart aches and is as heavy as can be All that's left in my #life is Guilt and little old me

You're searching for love For the one heart you can call home For the girl of your dreams For the one to complete your soul But you always end up in the wrong girls arms Ones who aren't what you thought Ones who cause you harm You've been searching for the girl for many years now But you always look in the wrong places And I don't understand how You want a girl who loves the same things you do One who loves you like crazy A girl who is as tough as nails But acts as bright as a daisy You want her to fall in love with your family And be your best friend One who can kiss and joke A girl who will love you past the end You've been looking so hard And it hurts me so much Because I'm the girl you describe But I feel like I'm not enough You try all these girls who don't love you even half as much as I do And then you come running to me when they hurt you You say I'm your bestfriend And you adore me so You'll love me forever Not matter the lows I think you know That we're meant to be Please don't be afraid to admit that I'm the girl of your dreams

Dear Daddy, Please don't leave me Please don't go I need you much more Than you'll ever know You make me laugh You make me smile Your silliness makes My days worth while If you have to leave I don't know what I'll do Besides some crying and A whole lot of missing you I know it's not my choice And it's a hard one to make But you're my number one And your absence will cause my heart to break I'm trying to hold it together Because I know you need me to be strong But I don't want you thousands of miles away That just feels completely wrong You're my rock And the sweetest guy i know You bring me up high From my lowest lows I know it's not my choice And it's quite selfish of me But I need you here Because I love my daddy I can't imagine you not being here Right by my side If you have to leave I'll have nowhere to hide I don't want to miss you Any more than I do right now It hurts to even think about it And I just don't understand how I should tell you how I feel Before it's too late Before I'm waving goodbye at the terminal And you've got a foot in the gate But I don't wanna make you sad I'm your happy little girl But really please don't leave me, daddy Because you're my whole world

Ode To Opal Sweet Ma, Thank you for raising me And always trying your best Thank you for loving so deeply And puting #life to the test No one understood you Until it was too late And I'm sorry for that It was truly our mistake You were such a great woman Strong and smart Your legacy will live on In all of our hearts There's so much I needed to say to you Before I ran out of time But #life had other plans So I've written you this rhyme I know I never said these things much before And I truly regret it deep down in my core But I like to think you can hear me now So here it goes I'll speak up and loud; I love you so much And it will never end Thank you for all that you've done And all the years you spent I was your baby Like you reminded me on your dying bed I will be forever And I'll never forget those words you said I was never momma's or daddy's or sissie's or bubba's I was always yours And I know that for sure I'm so sorry it took me 16 years and your unfortunate death To really appreciate you And all the love in me that you left I wish I could hug you Just one last time And tell you that I love you I just wish I could rewind I hated to see you go More than anyone, I think I didn't really show it But my pain was filled up to the brink I had to be the rock Just like you taught me I held it in So no one would see But I wanted to cry Every minute of every day I was so torn up That you were being taken away I love you more than anything I miss you in every part of me Going on without you is so hard And very, very tiring But I just need you to know That you are so special to me And you really always will be I hope you're up in heaven Enjoying your painless #life I can't wait to see you again some day When I give up this fight But until that day I'll do my best I'll do it for you And give #life no rest Thank you for everything I'll love you forever You're always in my heart And I'll forget you never

The Deadliest Game what do you want from me? I'm just a kid who got lost along the way I told you I always fuck things up I can never keep my feelings at bay I swear to god I tried to warn you as best as I could I told you I'm too much to handle but you completely misunderstood you thought you could save me and be a friend with a helping hand and I told you it's not worth it it wasn't a good idea to walk these lands but you insisted on being here despite that I am rotten I warned you about my shitty feelings and how they can't be forgotten and now I'm stuck here, loving you like crazy which is stupid because I'm a weed and you're a daisy I told you it'd end up like this I would be alone and hurt but you thought that you would stay and try to pick me up out of the dirt well that was foolish next time you should listen to what I'm saying don't go off your gut because now I'm falling apart and fraying it's all gone to shit I tried to warn you before and now you're looking at me disappointedly because I've fallen on the floor I don't know what you expected I told you I'm bad news but you chose not to listen so now you're gone, and I still somehow lose