Haven Been On Here In Ages sometimes I just want to let go and forget about all the stupid things i want to ignore all the venom and hate that the world brings I want to close my eyes and enter a world that's mine alone instead of being told this deceitful world is my own. I want to be able to smile and laugh my pains away but I know that'll just ignite the insults that they constantly throw my way 'oh my gosh did you see her she looks so hideous' 'if she really thought she'd be our friend she must've been delirious' why do I try when I know everyone's against me, I don't fit in, I never have and now I finally do see this world is not for me, or for anyone that's like me, I'm far too different and that's a problem for society

This Isn't A #poem I've been crying for ages. He's not listening to me, I've called and called but he won't talk to me. I asked for anything , just a sign that he was there for me... But he's just ignored me and now I think he's abandoned me. I know I'm lucky and stuff to have what I have, but I just wish it was different. Why do I think I'll get anywhere in #life? Why do I think about kids and a husband when I know that I'm not getting married-not because I don't want to but because of my actual self. I just hate this so much. * idec what anyone will say. This is how I feel and for some reason I thought it would make me feel better but it hasn't . I still feel exactly the same and it sucks.

I didn't mean to do it It was only a bit of fun But now I'm in trouble And what's done is done. I'm scared and worried Of how people will react Once they know the rumours weren't lied They were actually facts. I didn't mean to do it It was only a bit of fun But now I'm in trouble And what's done is done.

Obviously I can't breathe, my knees are feeling weak, my head is spinning and all blood is rushing to my cheeks, what else could it be? A boy. Obviously.

Lost My Mind It's a crazy world you know, Somewhere we've never seen Taking us high and low To places we've never been It's a crazy world you know Where people kiss, hug and date Something I find awkward when there's so much hate It's a crazy world you know It'll make you lose your mind That why I'm writing this Because I've already lost mine.