#life
Have you ever missed someone so much, that seeing them would just tear you apart? That it'd almost be too hard to see them again and just have them go away? Is it wrong too NOT want to see someone because of that? That question has ruined my whole day and my friends have even asked if I was o k because I was acting weird today, distant, and non-talkative. I've been trapped inside myself, the inner most depths of my brain with this just repeatedly turning around, all day... I've waited a year to see him again and it'll most likely be the last time for a LONG time because his Mom is moving to Texas in 8 days so that was his ticket here evwn though he didn't cone for her and it's just too much... On one hand if I see him it'll dawn on me that that was probably the last time i'll see him for over a year this time and it won't hit me until i'm in bed, two weeks later and a song reminds me of him (like most songs on my iPod because he was the one that got me strted listening too music) and then i'll probably breakdown on the inside like last time... And after MANY hours of walking and thinking to myself and listening to music will I strt to feel a bit better and I talk to him everyday but texting and phone calls aren't the same. It's not like we can go see movies anymore or stay up all night betting money on matches of Super Smash Bro's Melee or completely destroy every game of Zelda in just a few hours, it's... Just hard, you know? I'm sorry for venting on here but I don't want to burden my friends and my parents wouldn't understand... My Dad would laugh and tell me to suck it up and my Mom would get all emotional and then tell all of the world for years about it... So, this is where I have left, all of you, and let me say i'm very grateful haha.
