Do you ever feel so you good, you want to cry?

Masturbating is like a drug. It gives you the same high... And it drops you just as low. It gets addicting, you want to experience more pleasure each time you get that high. Just like drug addicts, you want a greater high.

It's a trap. Don't fall asleep. No don't stay awake. Enter my world of lies, I'll consume you. An empty head with no thoughts. I'll take you. This is no place you can hide.

"I love how you word things. It's like you speak through #quotes." "I only speak when I know what I'm talking about, everything I say comes from the heart. My #life experience." "You've been through a lot." "I have." "You're very wise."

Part 1. 18+ I laid down on my bed, while slowly turning my head to meet his bright blue eyes. "You're perfect" I whisper. "So are you" I smiled. Nothing was awkward, not even the fact that I was currently laying naked beside the boy I grew up with.. My best friend. He was defiantly not a boy anymore. Today was his 18th birthday & also the day he decided to admit his feelings for me. I honestly couldn't believe it. I will never know how a guy like him could fall for a nerd of a girl like me, but I didn't care. I knew I loved him and now I know he loves me. It's pure bliss. "I love you" I beam as I reach over and throw my arm over him laughing as I meet his lips. It was a short simple kiss, but a loving one. I look at his lips move as listening to what he was telling me. "I never thought I would ever have the guts to tell you how much I love you, I was afraid of losing you.. I mean we've been best friends for as long as I could remember. I knew I loved you that first day when my family & I were moving in and I saw you with your little pig tails, buying ice cream from the ice cream truck and you just happened to live next door" I laughed. "I used to think you were a stupid boy with cooties." "Oh really?" "Totally." "I think I am just gonna have to give you my boy cooties then!" He started tickling me. I was screaming & laughing at the same time, while telling him to stop. He did and kissed me. His hands started wondering, and me being me, jerked away. I didn't want to make a mistake. I looked up and saw him with his eyes looking down at the bed sheets we were wrapped up in. "I want to do this the right way" "What right way?" "Make love to me" I started blushing, just by listening to myself say the words. He looked up at me and took my chin in his hands. "Are you sure?" "Positive..."