Singeing Reminder #nightdwellers Warning-self injury and suicide references Memories long forgotten Locked away in my mind Barred behind walls A place where I can unwind Then you came along Knocking down my walls There's no hiding now So I sprint down the halls You reveal hidden scars And see all my pain Where I used to be alone Where only I could see it rain So I keep running I dive into my room I crawl into bed Which soon shall be my tomb I'm shaking too much And I can see my blade This is what I want I am not afraid One slash, two slash Three slash, four What's another cut? Why not more? The blood pours out Fire burns in my skin I don't want to feel it So I down a bottle of gin Five slash, six slash Seven slash, eight I've already begun So why wait? I open the bottle Hold the pills in my hand I've been ready for this I've had it all planned You burst in the door See the cuts on my wrist You see the pills in my hand And you tell me to resist You take my hand And place it in yours You tell me I can win I can win these wars In a sweet sense of peace I feel your lips on mine And I think to myself Will everything be fine? You kiss me everyday Causing so much confusion You think you make it better But it's partly an illusion Your lips have twist They taste like the past In a singeing reminder Of when I was an outcast

Failure How does it feel To embrace the pain As failure sinks in A pain of shame How does it feel To watch the torture As the man burns And you're the scorcher How does it feel To watch her fall And as she goes away, You dive back into alcohol How does it feel To see her glare Our family, I cannot repair How does it feel To see her rip away your dreams And she storms out With our little girl's muffled screams How does it feel To watch your marriage die And she doesn't look back She doesn't even say good bye

Just Another Day I sit here in my cold room And I feel so numb Why can't I live? I've fallen to the bottom… My mind wonders off To the world of dreams If only I could go there Oh how pleasant it seems I hear my name Somewhere in the distance Oh it's you again… Where is my resistance? I already know the story It's been done again and again You'll just lock me up Why can't I be like the free men? But as I think about it I am free Until you come back And corner me in another alley But you mean so much You mean everything to me So I take the beatings and pain Until all my bones are achy And my friends tell me That I will only get hurt But after you're done There's always some dessert You never really leave You're always there With the cheating and lies You're always having some affair So here I sit Alone, in my cold room Waiting for you Waiting for my own doom