Annie My sweet great nana, you looked so very tired today I wish this cruel world to stop thinking its kind this way. you cannot speak, hear or swallow only when shown a note pad and pen you could follow. I don't even think you knew I was there you looked straight past me, to that bare wall you stare. my heart broke for you today, Annie you who are so proud, you who cherish your family. I wish you safe and peaceful on your way I wish you no dishonour and therefor no longer to stay.

Puppetry tighten my thigh and slack my jaw I will dance for you no more my eyes are dead my hands are limp give me up you morbid gimp. I don't care or want to try many times you made me cry. I would have once, for you, no strings now you pull and tug just to make me sing. you sling me up and cast me down then tell me that you hate that 'silly frown' does it feel so good to have such power when my love for you dies by the hour?

a conversation with my mum my mum told me the other day that she believed that when you die you just go to a third universe and float around in a comfy peaceful state. I asked her how she explained #life on earth then? she said that's when you think something bad about someone or remember a bad thing you did with no regret and you get sent straight back down here again.. so she is gonna spend her dying breaths going: 'think happy thoughts! think happy thoughts!' I'd probably not get far before being dragged back...as a slug.. I <3 my mum

what they see I wish I was as patient as you, the you I see maybe an hour or two. I wish I was as kind and clever, you seem so strong and keen to endeavour. But how am I not like you too? I have the same dreams and things to do! and maybe I'm not all the time, but mostly I try to be generous and kind... and how can they say you're more fair than me when they see you once in my every three? you see sweet girl you close your doors but mine are open, I expose my flaws. and if I could do it all again, I'd still be me, and you'd still be them.