When she gets into to car you can feel the heaviness in the air, it reminds me of the elephant in the room, however this is more like a bomb .tickticktick I am waiting for the fuse to be lit tick ,tick , tick , nothing. So this is how it is going to be. At least I know the game we are going to play. You know the game , we all do. That painful lets pretend nothing has ever happened. I was face to face with all the voices in my head, the voices that tell me I am not good enough or worth anything. But it wasn't a voice in my head it was my mom. Here it is in black and white, so I don't forget this time. So I remember that she hates me and when I start to fantasize about a mother daughter relationship that does not exist, well then I can't remember having my inside ripped out at 50 on a Saturday afternoon behind a Shari's restaurant. 1. Don't ever tell me you love me against, we don't have the same view on love. I think love is patient love is kind and you are none of those things. 2. I wish there would have been a morning after pill so I could have taken it. You should have been aborted. Why did I raise you? 3. You took so many drugs as a teenager your mind is not all there. 4. I know you didn't write that email, your husband did. You cannot string two words together. 5. I have a darling daughter, and her name is Jamie. Not you. 6. I am scared for your Karma, I hope you lose one of your kids. 7. I relapsed because of you after I saw the movie gravity. 8. You will never see me again.