Yep. Sometimes the people that are the closest to you, may not be that close to you at all, it's just the fact that there's no one else closer than what they are to you. And maybe sometimes it would be nice to have someone to talk to and someone to laugh at everything with. Sometimes you can't talk to anyone, because everyone, no matter who it is, judge you.

I Can't Trust Anyone Today I've come to realise that I can't actually trust anyone, not properly anyway. There will ALWAYS be that one person who you think the world of and think you can trust untill they just keep on lying to you and letting you down, but what you've got to think about is; is it really worth everything you're going through? Is that ONE person worth all the pain, frustration, heartache, just everything, that they inflict upon you? If you don't have to think long and hard about whether or not they are worth it, chances are, they're worth it. What I've also realised today, is that people barely ever remember the good things, but instead they rather focus on the bad things and dwell in the past. At the end of the day, everyone's human and not everything is always going to be the same. Things change. People change. And there's nothing we can do about it.

My Day... The WORST thing has happened to me today. I woke up with a smile on my face, feeling like a princess, then as the day went on I found something horrid out. Just turns out that I've been lied to for over a year. I can't believe this is happening. I trusted him and he let me down, AGAIN. People never change so don't be fooled when they say they have.

Past Couple Of Days... For the last couple of days I have been spending them alone. My boyfriend, Tom, has been to some concerts. I hate being stuck at home on my own! I always feel so left out whenever he's out doing whatever, I don't understand why we can't just do these things together, i mean obviously we're not going to be around each other 24/7 but sometimes I just wish he'd make more of an effort to do things with me instead of his friends. I'm back at school tomorrow but thankfully it's my last term before I've left school permanently... Just seven more weeks to go! I'm planning on making my boring black/brown hair a lovely silvery blonde colour once I've left school, that way I have a lot of time before I go to college so I won't need to go anywhere with my ginger hair. Anyway, I think it's time for bed, gotta get up early for school. At least I won't be stuck at home on my own!

Searching For Guitar Lessons. Today me and my dad will be looking for guitar lessons. I had them about 3years ago but he just stopped them because he thought I wasn't interested in it anymore. He thinks I'm going to just give up if I start again and I have to prove to him I won't. I don't even think he's still convinced that I won't give up. Lets hope today goes okay, otherwise I won't be a very happy bunny