Real Self I look into the mirror, I don't recognize the creature staring back at me. My hazel eyes once full of #life and false happiness are now dead and rimed with red from my bitter tears. My forever smiling lips are turned downward in an uncharacteristic frown. My perfect facade is now wiped away, I stand now glancing at my self in all my glory. This is me. I can hide it for now but sooner or later you'll see the real me. You'll really see how broken and down I am. You have broken me, you have ripped my down . You have crushed my heart with your harmful words You'll know that my #life and actions were all a trick, an act to hide my true self from you. If you had known how much your words really hurt me, would you even care? Would you ever think twice about my feelings? Are you the only one that's allowed to have feelings? You act as if I have none, I keep my face expressionless so you can't have the satisfaction of my face falling with hurt. I pretend I don't hear you when you say those things behind my back but they are all I hear when I'm alone. They swirl around me whispering your own cruel words 'bitch', 'whore', 'nobody', 'fat ass', need I say more? You say you hate me but how can you, if you don't even know me? You don't know my story, you don't even know my name. You are hating me based on how I look and others thoughts about me. You act as if my Presence on this very earth is a burden on you. I've tried being nothing but polite and kind to you, yet you still hate me, why is that? Is it because you are envious of me? If so why? I'm not pretty, I'm not a genius, I'm not the strongest, I'm not confident, I'm far from perfect. You don't know me. You see my smile, not my pain. You only see what I want you to see. You don't know how my #life is tumbling down. With every word you say, another blow my heart takes. The walls I've built to keep people from seeing me are crumbling under your hateful hand. If you had just stopped to think about your words and actions, maybe my heart would still be intact. Will you ever see that just because someone did it to you, it doesn't make it the right thing to do? Think twice my friend. You might save someone's #life. My real self has been crushed and burned down by you, my dear bully. ~So if you read my story Make Them Pay I will be reposting it on another account soon. I'm editing the chapters and adding new ones so be on the look out for me on a new account. See ya soon~