A Second Mum. Even though your not my mum I know that you'll be there With the little things you do You let me know you care, You gave me a reason To get back on my feet A reason to be happy And to love myself a bit, You're always there to help Whatever the need may be Depressed, angry and saddened you'd always make me happy, Now your becoming the mum I have never known You made me happy in ways No one else had ever shown, Family isn't always blood It's the people who want you around The people who love you And will do anything to make you smile, Some nights were worse than others I'd cry and cry and cry Thinking no one could be bothered To make my tears dry, All I had was you and him To keep me from falling To keep me from taking a blade and violently drawing, When I felt my hopes drifting away And every inch of me desperately not wanting to stay There were just two people who helped me put the pills away, Now the days I feel alone and sad I'll always think of that The times we were so close and all that we had, I've had to learn the last couple months To make my journey happy I've learnt to hold back the pain And to make my journey sane, Some bad days go by And I wish you was there He holds me so tight But he doesn't even know why After I've cried and cried and cried That my tears just won't dry, I miss you, You've let me learn so many things It's never too late to set a new goal or to dream a new dream Keep your eyes in the skies and your hopes in your heart, I'm now scared of what the future holds I'm dependent on his hugs and kisses So I can dream happy dreams, I needed you I needed your happy thoughts To lift my spirit high To help the scars fade And make my #life go by. Thank you, my amazing..second mum. <3

Dougie And Blue<3 Fantasising about the future, When you and your sister will be here, Your cute little toes poking my stomach, Already causing a ruckus. Your first breath, And when you open your eyes, You'll not just see me, But your father too, Gazing in your eyes. We imagine your footsteps when your five, Running into our bedroom and jumping on us with great surprise. On your birthdays, We'll spoil you rotten, Giving you millions of presents, Everything you want, We will never have forgotten. Your both so precious already, I dream about the colour of your eyes, And your cheeky smiles, I wonder if you'll have mine or your fathers nose, But I don't mind as it goes. And your wedding days, When your both so grown up, You'll still be our babies, And we will all ALWAYS stay in touch. We love you already. We can't wait to meet you... Your future muma and dada<3 x

The Struggle THE STRUGGLE... The age of 12 it took me, My heart was weak And it took it's chance, To creep up and ruin me. My grandad left us, And we were all so destroyed It felt like death was upon us, But we tried to stay strong and not cry. A couple of months later... A new tragedy, A car zoomed down the hill Mums car was ripped apart, And left her, my little brother and big sister all covered in red crimson blood like a peice of dark dotted art. I didn't know how to handle, The pain that struck inside of me All I knew is my #life had no meaning, And that #life meant nothing from the beginning. My fiancé saved me, From a #life full of pain Nothing I do will ever give back to him, What he done for me When my whole world was down the drain. He stopped and knew, I needed help, He stopped at looked And saw my beauty, inside and out, He stopped and loved, Loved with every piece of him possible. No scars fazed him, No worries stopped him, He gave me hope and happiness, In the gloomy moments.. Thinking of that perfect, loving soul.. Comforted me and helped me through the horrible burning coal. I'm okay now. I'm finally back. Since that day 3 years ago I thought I wanted my #life to end, But I met Cieran, And thanks to him I'm okay again. He's the only thing that stopped me, He may not know that, But my heart does, his heart does too they always will. He'll always be my special one. I've... WE've defeated The Struggle. It's over. Dedicated to; Cieran<3

Cieran All my #life I've wanted you, I've dreamt of you, I've needed you, Then.. I finally found you. I wake up in the morning, Your there, In my head, in my heart, The first thing and the only thing, That's there right from the start. Feeling your warm chest wraps my body in comfort, The delicate butterflies start to tickle my belly, Your gentle kiss on my head, Making my heart ache with a burst love. We've planned a future, That I know you'll make come true, We want our babies, Dougie and blue, And Our little pug, Binks too. When times have been hard, You've helped me through, You've helped stop the pain, And the agony too, The blades I picked up and the blood I drew, Is now disappearing, Because of you. The futures bright, We just have to keep looking up, And see the light, Shining above. Nothing means as much to me as you... Dedicated to: My fiancé, Cieran Leigh faithful.

Mummy Mum, Thank you for the love, Thank you for the kindness, Thank you for the smiles, You give when I feel vile, Thank you for the protection, When family was braking and flaking, Falling apart and shaking, Thank you for holding me, In times of pain, You know when your hurting I do the same, Thank you for being there, And letting me share, Thank you for drying my tears when he wasn't there, But most of all..thank you for being you, and the one I'll always love too <3 Dedicated to: my mum, Kirsten<3