It Feels Right Every time we talk it feels magical! I swear this feels too right to be real!!! He says and does all the right things... He treats me so special! We talk when he wakes in the morning. When he goes to bed each night. On his way to and from work. On his lunch break... Every moment we can get we talk! He's told everyone he has talked to about me... Gosh...I've never felt like this before its so scary but it's amazingly right. We're going to take it as slow as we can... But my goodness.... This is just too good to pass up... He might be my "one" He makes me giggle and blush. Smile and daydream all throughout the day... I love feeling like this! My goodness...he's just right for me!

Happy My goodness! I'm so happy... I never thought I'd be this happy... Yes, it's scary. But I have this gut feeling that he won't hurt me! My last relationship lasted two months and I got treated horribly. This was almost 7 months ago now... He found me on a site and messaged me... I'm so happy he did!!! He's the best thing ever! He makes me smile for days just by the mere thought of him!!! His family likes me my mum likes him.... This is just too amazing! I'm so happy I haven't stopped smiling ...my face literally hurts from smiling so much!!!

Secret I have a secret No one knows of Hiding deep inside. If anyone knew I know they would judge. It's really quite obvious if you took the time to know me. You'd see right through my disguise. I hide behind my own body planing my own demise. I use it for this I use it for that yet I'm self conscious to an extreme. You won't ever meet someone like me who does and says the truth like I do. I'm a hermit yet I am social. I'm scared and fearless at the same time. I don't know if anyone would ever believe my secret to be true or okay. It's the kind where everyone looks down on you for having it. For thinking it. For wanting it. It's scary thinking I will be considered an outcast because of this...

Lies You said you loved me then you left me like I meant nothing. You said you worried about me and that you genuinely care but that was all lies again. You said you wanted to be with me, said I would never leave you unless you leave me. YOU left me. You said everything was fine and that you were going to get over it. You said I was beautiful and you didn't care if I was bigger. You said that no matter what you'd try as long as I tried too. You said all of these things and then left me completely heartbroken and worried sick about you for weeks. You promised you weren't messing around behind my back... You lied. You lied about loving me. You lied about caring. You lied about everything. And I stayed around waiting like a fool. I waited for you for a month and a half. Waiting on Skype. Waiting on Facebook. Waiting for you while you were messing around behind my back. Making me look a fool while I cried over you. I'm done. I'm done crying. I'm done hoping you'll change your mind and come back to me. I'm done thinking that you really did love me. I know it was a lie. I know you're a liar. I know that we were never going to be. So good bye. Here's my closure. It was a hoax that I fell for. A game that I lost in. No more sour grapes. You played well. But now...I'M going to win. It's my turn to be happy. It's my turn to walk away without any second thoughts. Goodbye.