The Aftermath Of A Broken Heart I try to escape the dark pockets of my heart and mind, But it roots me to the spot for hours on end until im completely enveloped by the darkness so much so inner light becomes harder to find. I cant move, I cant stop thinking, I cant stop wishing and hoping, I am living a #life without you and my heart is no longer coping. One sentence completely misinterpreted has sentenced me to this infinite pain, I never lied, cheated, hurt or abused you, you broke it off for reasons that werent sane. Yet im the one thats dealing with the hurt as I was powerless in changing your mind. The thing that roots me to this spot here and now is whether I accept it and leave it all behind.

All The #poems I wrote For Her There is a price to having you in my #life, A #life where you take away the stress and the strife. In the darkest corners of my self oppressed mind, You shine a light so bright that the darkness becomes hard to find. You raise the corners of my mouth and mould them into a smile, Something I havent felt for quite a long while. You are special beyond any words I can piece together, I hope what we are building lasts forever. I mentioned that there is a price to having you in my #life, Its a ring, which I will one day use to finally call you my......?

Broken For Good It was magical at first, the laughter and the kisses and the feeling of acceptance. I was lost hopelessly in love with you in a hypnotising trance. We would spend hours seeing each other, then talking on the phone, our whatsapp history is a novel in itself truly unique in humorous tone. It was perfect, we were at peace, at heart and in harmony. You said I would make you all wrinkly because of smiling because I was really funny. We spent each moment knowing we would one day marry, to love each other forever and ever. I laugh to myself in a psychotic manner at how those dreams crumbled forever. It was too perfect, we were way to happy, we couldn't even watch a Disney film without feeling sappy. I wrote romantic #poems to make you smile as you always said it was the smallest gestures that meant the most. Now look at me writing this like a heartbroken ghost. I feel empty without you despite you crushing my soul, how could you even think for one second I wasn't fulfilling a partners role? How can I quietly listen but stay so quiet as if I don't care? Really? How on earth is that remark remotely fair? You threw away our future because of your low self esteem and troubled #life. How many times have you tried to break up with me saying its you and that you cause me strife? Yet, it's me that doesn't listen, its me that doesn't want to commit, its me that doesn't love you or want to marry you? You selfish and troubled bitch I would have loved you no matter what. Now you have torn me to pieces that sadness is going and the anger wants you to rot. You threw it all away just because of your irrational fear and lack of trust in me. I never made you feel your not worthy, I never tried to hurt you, I could never lie to you. It wasn't enough, it was my heart you threw. You aren't the victim, you just like to live your #life as one. I'm not like you, I no longer run. The saddest part is I would take you back in a heartbeat but you would always want to be in the driving seat. Waiting to crash and burn. No, I won't let you and I will move on in time, and this thing called Opus I guess helps the healing using rhyme

Fate Did we meet because of fate ? There's no rules so understanding it is never quite straight, Why did we both say yes when it was easy to say no? Maybe we thought the optimism of being together would eventually grow. I feel we are getting stronger the more we meet, My heart starts to flutter when you are near and it’s you that makes it skip to a new beat. You know now that I'm an open book, a minority or one of the special few, So please believe me when I say your smile is something I will always strive to pursue Are you willing to take a risk and leave it all to fate? If so I will be here holding out my hand waiting to be your soulmate.

Fate Can you escape your fate? Can you persevere and lead yourself out of a bad state? But then is that considered fate? There's no rules so understanding fate is never quite straight.. Can you depend on fate and carry on with the long wait ? Or will that eventually lead to blind hate? Fate is a funny thing which will bring a smile on the stormiest day, Then take it away and make you feel guilty and grey. Does fate actually exist or something you die trying to resist? That funny thing called fate.