Wow.... Ok, If i don't post for a month or so, Either, Im far too depressed or Mostly likely committed suicide

Just a lil update on my #life; Ive been in another #depression stage (like 24/7). I checked up #depression and came up with suicidal feelings. I checked the list, I fitted all the points of suicidal #depression, Like i SO needed a check list to know that, not.

This Is Irl Stuff Btw That Happened. I sat in class like normal, doodling on my jotter.... Scribbling a cat...a wolf and a teardrop... A boy snatched my book, "Aww! Drawing stupid cats again are we now?" I glared, "Give it back Declan!" He laughed "Or what? You gonna tell on me, like a little whining kitten calling for its mummy?" Everyone laughed at me, I stared at the desk, Tears welling up in my eyes... "Hey wanna got out with me?" mocked a boy in maths. "there more chance of me committing suicide than even thinking of going out with you!" Lee laughed, "Suicide? Great! Crack open the champagne people lets celebrate!" I looked in horror. 'I never did anything to them....why is this happening to me......I just want it to stop...i just wanna go die...'

Sorrow And Fear Sorrow... Makes you cry...yourself to sleep every night... Fear... Makes you scared...to close your eyes.... Sorrow... Makes your heart break...as a loved ones #life gets taken away.... Fear... Make you terrified...to look away from a loved one for more than a second.... But i looked away...i paid the price....and i learned of Sorrow and Fear...

Pitter Patter.... Pitter patter went the paws, Pitter patter went the heart, Pitter patter went the rain, The pitter patters fade away... ... Pitter patter, fell my tear, Pitter patter, my heart cried.... Pitter patter..... Pitter patter.... Pitter patter.... To my little kitten Lily that died at 7 months old....i promise on her grave to protect her brother at the cost of my #life.....and that im sorry i couldnt save her little heart.... 8th of February 2013..... Rip my love... Rip...my Lily...