Lies I told my heart, "you will be content with less." My heart replied, "don't lie to yourself, you will always want more from him."

Contentment I am content. I am not happy. I am not sad. I am simply content. And some days That is all we can hope to be.

You Can Run, But You Can't Hide Hello my dear! I see you’ve been trying to hide from me now, haven’t you? My my, how could you ever be so silly. Don’t you get it? I will always find you. Run; to as far as the furtherest corner of the globe, into the distance of the horizon. Run; as fast as a galloping mare, as rapidly as the white waters of the Grand Canyon. None of that truly matters. I am without limits. I am undeterred by boundaries. i am all knowing, all consuming, all powerful. i am omnipresent. Afraid? Be very, very afraid. I am an irrefutable, imperative aspect of your existence. i am your conjoined twin. I am the reason you are who you are today. I am the most significant aspect of your pathetic, miserable #life. Because i am, undeniably, a part of your essence. You can run, but you can never, ever hide from me. I am you, you are me. We are one being, two halves of an entirety. Run; and i will be running alongside you. Our mileage grows, but never our distance. Hide; and i will be hiding together with you. We can escape the universe, but never each other. You may not sense my presence, you may feel relieved to think you have escaped me. But you are never far from my clutches. I am waiting in the shadows, lurking beneath the false happiness and security, waiting. Waiting for an opportune to pounce on you, rip into you, and finally, consume you. The saying “You can run, but you can’t hide”? Lies. Run; and i will be running with you. Hide; and i will be hiding with you. You are, but my stunning host, scantily clad in your dreams of a better tomorrow. Alright enough chattering, what’s for dinner this evening? Shall we have a dash of hope for starters? How about a side of confidence and a main course of self-esteem? Oh i nearly forgot, how does a touch of your self-worth for dessert sound?

You'll Remember The One You Love Because I choose to keep the good memories and treasure the happy times we’ve had. Because I choose to not let go of a single precious moment we’ve had together - even the bad. I’ll remember our inside jokes, your little quirks, your laughter. I’ll remember the way your lips curve to reveal teeth that are oh so slightly crooked. I’ll remember the disbelieving yet amused look on your face when I recount something stupid I’ve recently done. I’ll remember your worry and concern when I’m unwell. I’ll remember how I went to sleep thanking God for you, thanking Him for showering me with such blessings. I’ll remember waking up and immediately checking my phone for the good morning text that was sure to be sitting in my inbox, then smiling like an idiot at 6 in the morning. I’ll remember the pet names we had for each other, all having their own special meaning. I’ll remember you always being there to support my goals and dreams. I’ll remember running to my phone after competitions and presentations so you could be the first person I share the experience with. I’ll remember the times you were my personal cheerleading squad, telling me I could get through the darkest of days because I was strong enough. I’ll remember the time we sat at Coffee Bean and simply watched the world go by in our little bubble, indulging in each other’s presence. I’ll remember that feeling of pure ecstasy, that feeling of being untouchable when I knew for sure you’ve got my back regardless. I’ll remember the warm fluttering of my heart, the happy butterflies in my stomach at the cheesy lines you #quote. I’ll remember the first time you told me you cared about me, and made me feel protected and sheltered. I’ll remember when you told me you loved me, and I fell asleep with the biggest grins on my face. I’ll remember that eureka moment when I realised that what I felt for you was so strong, so intense, that I honestly didn’t think “love” covers it although it probably is the closest in the dictionary mankind has. I’ll remember all things good about you. I’ll remember the bad too. I’ll remember the fights we’ve had because you don’t like something I’ve done. I’ll remember the fear and anxiety because you were upset. I’ll remember your moodiness, my moodiness, and the days we simply just didn’t gel together. I’ll remember the times I cried because I thought I’d lost you. I’ll remember the times I cried because we finally made up and it was such a relieving feeling knowing I had you back again. I’ll remember how you shut me out because you didn’t know how to deal with your emotions and thoughts. I’ll remember your indecisiveness, from choosing a place to dine at to making up your mind about your #life career. I’ll remember the insecurity and fear that shuddered through my nerves, because I was unsure where we stood and how you felt. I’ll remember all things good and bad about you. Because they are two halves of the you I know, copulated together by your pure soul and kind intentions. I’ll remember, because you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I’ll remember, because I still love you. Maybe one day I’ll find the courage to show you this letter. But i hope it won’t make a difference, because I hope you have always remembered exactly how much I love you.

The One We all know that things often don’t go the way we want. People come and go. The one who has been there with you through thick and thin, seen you through your highest and lowest, laughed and cried with you. The one who you were, and still are, so immensely grateful for. The one who has -literally- kept you alive. The one who you so astutely refused to believe would depart from your #life one day, because #life would then be incomprehensible. The one who could bring a genuine smile to your face even on the hardest of days. The one you love with all your being. The one you love more than #life itself because let’s face it, what other reason is there for you to look forward to waking up the next morning? You know who I’m talking about. The one who is so vibrant in your eyes that the above description pales in comparison to the person he is. But The One is gone. It’s difficult to wrap your mind around that notion. You can’t quite believe it’s happened; you can’t quite believe that there’s no more “we”. There’s only “me” and “you”. There’s no more team, no one to fight alongside you on this journey dubbed “#life”. Even months after “we” have ended, you still can’t quite comprehend and internalize that The One is no longer part of your #life. And you know what? It’s okay. It really is. It’s okay to be filled with love for The One one moment, and be filled with anger and hatred for The One the next. It’s okay to bawl your eyes out, it’s okay to scream your anguish to the heavens. It’s okay to binge on pints of Ben & Jerry’s. It’s okay to admit that you miss The One. It’s okay to admit that you’re scared of facing a future without The One. It really is okay. It’s tough, painful, tear-filled. You will cry for months to come, you will shun away from the slightest inclination of the formation of an emotional attachment. You will grieve. You will go through a process of self-doubt and trash your self-esteem. You may believe yourself incapable of being loved. But know that you will heal. You will learn to trust others with your heart again. I’m not saying you’ll manage to push The One out of your mind forever. I’m not saying you won’t feel that twinge of pain, regret, and maybe love, when you chance upon a reminder of your past with The One; because a love that strong never truly leaves you. I’m saying you will learn to live and cope without The One. You will learn to smile again. You will learn to laugh genuinely, a true laugh that bubbles from your stomach and warms your insides. You will learn to live vicariously. You will learn to live #life to the fullest, because having hurt from love lost and picked yourself up from it can only make you stronger and more appreciative of #life. But most importantly, you will learn to be a person of your own - you will embrace yourself, flaws and cracked heart and all. I loved you. I still love you. But while loving you, I’ll love myself, and I’ll learn to love others too. Always is a long time, but I honestly do reckon I’ll love you always. Because a love that strong, just doesn’t leave you.