Don't allow other people to dictate what your ambition should be. Only YOU know and only YOU can get yourself there.

Abused. True love is true, Not like me and you. Consistently living in fear wondering when the next hit will appear. Is that the relationship you want? Constantly cooking a ready meal for one. They have names for people like you and helplines I could maybe talk to but you won't let me constantly saying "you'll protect me" If this is protection I don't want to see rejection.

R.I.P Mum. It's been 4 years mum, Since god took you away from us. Everyday is hard and Toms suffering from the scare's The day dad sat us down and said "your in a better place now" It might be alright for you but I'm suffering too. I wish you was still here I'd give you a big hug and kiss. It would be the best Christmas gift just to see you for a second would create so much bliss. And it's almost Christmas mum, I'll be sat at your grave on Christmas day just to show you the way. Maybe one day we'll meet again. Until that day I will keep my head high just like you always said before you put me to bed. R.I.P

What If? What if you was to see Me being the person you didn't want me to come Would that change your mind that would make you rewind the past you wish didn't go so fast maybe that's your wish to see me in bliss with another boy, would that make you realise how much you need me? When it's to late to change the present would you try to change the future? Make what should be the now be the tomorrow? I wish you could see what I've become, 4 years I waited in the dark for you to come to light to show me what I've been missing and make me realise that I need you more then your realising. Maybe one day you'll see that me and you we're ment' to be.

I Miss You Love at first sight Is it true or a hopeful fact? Maybe both who's right is it to dictate? Maybe yours Maybe mine We just have to wait for the right time. To take a step back and think about the past What a great year it's gone so fast. The day you told me you 'miss me' maybe thats me just being a little silly? I still pray for the day you would text me just to say 'I miss you' I'd reply straight away with a smiley face and a "k" Maybe that's to harsh? I mean do I owe you a lecture? About how I need to protect you? To lie and say I love and miss you when really I can't even kiss you. But I miss you. I really do. Maybe one day you'll realise that you can't have me when you please. That everything has a end. And our friendship. It's falling. Falling. Out of our grasp, but its your call to protect its fall. I Miss You.