Final With her last breath...she still managed to clench my hand

Final With her last breath...she still managed to clench my hand

Hiatus I took a break from Opuss to set my mind straight. Its been a while since my last post but I am happy to be back. I've had clear my mind because I could not get over the loss of a girl who I loved most dearly. The deep wound in my heart was painful but I'm glad to have felt it and know in my heart that I was lucky to have loved this girl. To be with the one who could make my heart beat crazily. The one whose smile makes my heart feels warm. The one whose hands make me happy and lighthearted. But those are memories, sweet loving memories. I have to move on. I've spent so many years selfishly blaming and feeling sad for myself. I never once thought about her and how sad she would be if she saw me. Thank you to this wonderful girl. I hope that where ever she is she is happy. To me she will always be number 1 in my heart.

The Mirror Room I am in an empty room. Except for a gigantic mirror hanging on the cold stone wall. I walk closer to it. I expected to see my reflection. Except I see her, reflected on the surface. Smiling and crying, she reach out a hand and touch the mirror on her side. I could never touch her , the closest I can get is the cold reflective surface of the mirror. There, alone I press my face against the mirror and weep sorrowfully.....

That Awful Moment That awful moment when you wake up in the dead of night jolted awake by a terrible nightmare with tears streaming down you face. The sadness which envelops you. The emptiness, a hole, which can never be filled. The pain which crushes your very soul. And in the end you know that that particular person in your nightmares is the only one who would be able to heal your heart.