The Last 10 Minutes The clock is ticking I lied alone in the darkness Feeling the fan covering up patches of my skin I don't know why I am waiting The last 30 minutes I just wasted is taunting Physical needs like sleep is gradually leaving And the sadness is always creeping 4 minutes and I'm remembering that I could have done this one hour before 3 minutes left and I'm criticising myself and my own work 2 minutes left I'm thinking unrelated thoughts like how pretty the 8 looks 1 minute left and looking at the shape of 9 it reminds me of Lady Gaga 0, When reality shows up #quote Lady Gaga: "I loath Reality" I agree with you.

Once Once You were all I ever wanted You were all I ever needed I feel hope as soon as you walk into the room I could write about you everyday I can keep thinking about you every minute of the day I don't understand love, but I knew I love you Back then at one point, I forgave you But not anymore Why did you hurt me? Why can't you love me? Am I not pretty enough, am I not feminine enough, You treated my love like an unwanted street rat I thought I could swallow it, but not right now Thank you for the day dreams I used to have about you Thank you for teaching how to choice love- how I will never want a pity-ful relationship.

Noises In The Bedroom It's quiet at night in our bedroom, You hear nothing but you can hear everything. The low and smooth humming of the air condition minding his own business on the wall The needles on the clock click click click with their heels rushing in circle The sound of silence entering from both your ears and straight into your head, like a heart monitor that detects nothing The gentle rumble of the sheets as the human beneath them twist and turn and flaps like seals Every once in a while you hear one of the human make a sound that resembles the horn of trains Hopefully, by then, You would begin to hear the sound of your own breathing, softly against your pillow Goodnight, lovers

Still Trying, Or Whatever -Tale Beyond What You Know Still ... trying, kinda.. A few 'thoughts-everywhere' nights and getting shot by "WHat are u Doing" lasers... Having a lot and in-no-order thoughts floating around my head Conflicts, Confrontation Confusions Before all this mess I believe at one stage I did try to figure things out But now reality-related problems, "what are you going to do" future simulations and [Only God would know] stabs are pouring in Screwing it, I don't know what's in my head Challenges have been raised, 8hours of painting per day she said, then I would be as good as those art students Can I do that shit? And my head is a mess, thank you very much new med that's suppose to help with my way of thinking, You did incredibly well And I can't think of another way to squeeze in more sarcasm into one sentence #TitleChallenge @yikici

3 Months 3 months, I have 3 months left 1 of August So much still I haven't seen, So many still I haven't met, So much still I haven't said, So much still I haven't explained, So many still I haven't showed my love I will try my hardest to hold back my tears at night I don't know if I am going to have regrets by the end of my stay No matter how strong I thought I was before I came home I only know that when I fly back, across the continents, I will break again at the thought to leaving you again The sadness will kill me slowly inside 3 months, I have 3 months left