What Can I Do I'm slowly slipping. Everything I knew is gone. Everyone I thought I could trust Everyone I once believed in Gone. Sometimes I wonder if I just let go If everything would be better But then I think about the pain caused by my cousin And how much that hurt And I know I can't bring myself to do it. But it's the worst feeling Like you're drowning But you can see everyone around you breathing. But some people's masks are secretly punctured And they're drowning with you But you don't know You don't know And I tell myself it'll get better That I'll have my friends again That they'll be back But it just keeps getting worse And I don't know how To trick myself Into thinking it'll go away.

You Used To Funny. I thought it was perfect. Until Your attention strayed. You used to cast glances Looks Smiles My way until I couldn't help But smile back. You used to wait for me After class After school Before you left Just to get a hug. You used to see me and make a joke Or a face Or anything that you knew Would make me smile, Break my shell. You used to message me Text Hangouts Anything Just to get me to say hi back. You used to. Now I look back When I was still your focus And wonder if maybe Maybe Something could have been different I could have done something To make what you do now What you used to.

Gone I cry silent tears Of anger Of frustration Of sadness. It's all implied I don't really know But I don't really care. If she's the reason The reason he's gone Then she's gone. Because she knows How much he means to me How much I miss him When he's not there. She knows I love him How happy he makes me How much I Don't want to lose him. So if she's the reason The reason he's gone I don't care her excuse I don't care her reason I will hate her And I will never talk to her Again. And him He'll get a slap in the face Maybe from realization Or maybe from me. Because he might just realize How much it hurts me That he'd do this Or maybe he won't Maybe I'll slap him Because he deserves it. He says he loves me He says he cares He says he'll tell me Everyday He says I'm worth it. And I got used to it Our daily conversations Slowly building me up. What I didn't realize Was how much I needed Just one message Just one word To keep that building From crumbling beneath my feet. So if it's her fault If he agreed to If he didn't tell me And he still did it Then I'll happily do the same.

Does It Make You Feel Better? Knowing that your smile Your voice Your smell Drive me mad? Knowing that I could never Give you up Stay mad at you Let you go Because it would hurt too much? Being so perfect In my eyes And I can't control it I'm falling for you.

Tell Me "He likes her too?" "No." "I wasn't supposed to say that." "She can't see that. " "No. " Why does it matter to me Whether or not you like me? The problem is I like you A lot more than I'd planned. Your smile melts me Your laugh makes me laugh And when you try To cheer up our friends, It's adorable. But not again. I just came to terms With you not liking me I mean, I never thought In my craziest dreams That you would ever like me Look at me. Now look at you. There's no way anyone like you Could ever like me Right? But she says so... She says you do. Don't raise my hopes Just for you to dash them. Please Tell me it's not a lie.