invisibly insane another time another another place another friend with a friendly face my mind is racing as i begin pacing having trouble embracing the #life i once had I've developed a fear of the one thing i hold dear i know not the reason perhaps its the season but i tend to disagree I've been burned to the third degree with no sure reason my mind's committed treason a betrayal can burden the mind and without a doubt you can get left behind but it seems there's no blame having known it was just a game

random self help writing I'm finally over you, i thought you should know that after the same amount of time we were together I've finally healed i told you i was the sensitive type but i guess i didn't even know the extent of this wishing for a gift a break a moment of happiness seems an impossibility now no.. not because of you because of the type of person i am now i feel as if i need to leave my home leave this place and never look back for there are too many memories in this place.. home "home is where the heart is" thats the saying right? then.. why do i feel there is no home for me? do i not have a heart anymore? did you take it? did you give it away? where are the emotions i used to feel about everything? am i a husk? but I'm over you id like to reiterate but as i was getting over you i found myself feeling the only way for me to break free of this feeling is to go quiet and think just think i never knew what effect this would have on me i shouldn't have kept quiet because the type of person i am now is afraid of talking to people without knowing why they call this social anxiety but what im afraid of isn't making a new friend its keeping that friend I'm afraid ill have my heart back again and get hurt again it sucks and i wish i could change it on my own... but i cant... i need a friend a good friend who wont give up trying to help me feel more confident because i get quiet

confession i must confess though i may make a mess that you could impress even the most beautiful goddess you're never behind anything in my mind with no one to confide my feelings i tend to hide i wish i could voice the way i feel but if i did i would not heal for your absents would leave a hole i wouldn't be able to fill i smile when i see your face and my heart beats at a faster pace all i can really say least i dont feel like im in a race

sorry guys I'm trying to write but I'm blocked i cant come up with anything good x_x however i got a guitar an been working with that a little converting #poems into lyrics is difficult :/

i wish i was (i wasn't) i wish i was a fish to swim among the beautiful corral reef i wish i was an eagle to fly above the misty clouds away from the troubles i wish i was a dolphin to breach my surface waters miraculous and incredible i wish i was a wolf to be in a pack and loved by all but out of all these things i wish i was i wish i wasn't a penguin i feel ill fade away without my love i wish i wasn't an elephant dying because my lover is gone i wish i wasn't a swan the heart we once created is now torn in two