Pain The tug of pain The impending hurt You grit your teeth And expect the worst The docs no help They send you away They dont understand It drives you insane Up to the hospital Your prodded and poked They find nothing wrong People think its a joke But no one can feel The pain thats inside Up to 12 times a day Its exhusting my mind My body dont listen It does as it feels The pain and the blood Are all to real Iv followed advice Taken meds and eat right But nothing helps Theres no end in sight My doc oh so charming At our last meeting huh Go home and make friends With your illness he said Its driven me mad #depression is rife In pain every day The toilet is now my #life. This is a personal experience i have with sevire ibs and speaking to others Who have the same issue id thought id give you a small peak at what its like on a day to day basis not the nicest of illnesses but just as dibilitating Sorry for the spelling dyslexic lol

The End A shattered #life A ruined dream The #life I lead Unloved unseen Forever walking A lonely road Cracked and pitted Just like my sole The winding road That is my #life It spans the darkness My pain my strife I long to reach That long roads end Yet fear what lies Beyond #life's death Forever onwards I must go As tears of pain And sorrow flow Untill that day That death draws near His embrace ill welcome Then no more fear.

C The silent killer It grows within It's silent moves It's stealthy spread It eats your mind your heart your sole Your body that's the last To go Destroying all left In its wake It's indiscriminate In the lives it takes Black white Rich or poor It's all the same Death holds the door But hope for some They make it through And try to start There #life anew But time it takes The scars run deep The flesh and mind Never heal complete

Broken Iv hurt myself My arms are soar I hid the knife Behind the door They come for me They clean me up They give me pills In a paper cup They search the room They find my toys They dispose of all My horrid joy The pills are working Now I must sleep My arms are bound To padded sheets They say I'm ill There hear to help To show me #life Preserve my health It will take time My pain must break To end my torment For my loves sake Lee Tovell. 22/2/2002

Sleep The night has come It's time to sleep To face my demons Down in the deep They drag me down There is no rest I run and hide I try my best Soon I'm found The nightmare begins I pray for light To warm my skin Now as the day Draws ever near The demons fade As light draws in Now as I wake I kiss the day And pray the sun Will never fade But I hear them still Down in the deep They will come for me When it's time to sleep