I try so hard to like myself
but ive never really achieved anything …
… yah i beat zelda … party 😀
I fall easily to complete distraction, and as a result am often lost on utube, endlessly wading through reams of worlds greatest whatever,
captivated in a barrage of unending dross.
as the light from my windows gives way to neon
am I freed of all other considerations
… except deep cross-examination …
I stand in a dock of my own making, as the whole universe peers down upon me
and I validate myself as a human being,
thoroughly and overwhelmingly revolted.
JUST LIKE YER FUCKIN FATHER …
never amount to fuck all
I collapse into bed after hours of nothing and try to sleep
hoping for death