On one hand I was just crying because it was everybody else's fault. It was #life it self who had betrayed me. But on the other hand I knew that no matter how loud I would scream towards the sky, it could not change anything. I would have to do that myself. I would have to change myself. They all sounded like it was easy and I was childish. But when I was forcing myself to be social, I was drowning. In a very large sea, very far out. God! Why was I so strange. Sometimes I would just stare at myself in the mirror thinking: Why can't you just be like any normal teenager and do what they sing about in those stupid pop-songs. But I was struggling the last couple of weeks left in school before the holidays. STRUGGLING! So here I am, somewhere, nowhere, on vacation swimming in the giant sea with no damn boat to sail in. Blame it on my #life. I have to blame it on myself.