Academic Numbness i feel like a thought faker, writing all the thoughts of another thought taker. i see others fake thinking, searching for the right words breaking this deep curse withhout even blinking, A sentence or two to say what i mean, but mean what i say, no its just the routine, get your knowledge from the others, thier individual weathers but for heavens sake dont get it from your own #lifes endeavours. Prove you know what others do, what you do to who doesnt mean a thing, its just the way you win. take in all the crap and words of wisdom that have since passed, never missed, mourned or remembered just a frozen thought in a hateful task. spit it out like a professional, your academic confessional, its the way it works, dont change it or make it just repeat till it hurts. Read the same sentence multiple times, take it in, mess it up let the concepts rewind, Give the theory a spin, let the words work themselves in, take out every essence of you in search of acceptence and truth. Show them you know what they know but not a drop more, an unwritten hazard an unspoken law, send it in, wait a while for the endless green mile of judgement and decision, each and every incision, torn apart, broken open, each mistake a sign, a token, words too long words to short, thoughts are awry thoughts mean nought, opinion...no forget it, fact of disguised fiction thats worth some credit.