Every morning when i wake up i dont want to wake up every night when i want to sleep i cant fall asleep and everyday when i feel broken i still crack a smile and some jokes just to pretend im fine no one sees the pain in my eyes no one sees the tears in my eyes and no one knows i have a broken heart because every single day ill hold my head high smile and pretend im fine but everynight ill cry myself to sleep and tell myself everything will be okay even tho i know thats a lie i just want someone to hold me and tell me that everything will be okay but when i was trying to make myself happy i pushed everyone away and now i feel so alone in this big horriable world. I miss those days were i wanted to go to school i miss those days were i wanted to wake up i miss those days when my smile was real i miss those days were i could fall asleep as soon as i closed my eyes i miss those days were i was close to my family i miss those days were i would laugh so hard and mostly i miss those days when i was happy with no stress...