#depression Is Not The Issue I am sitting here on this closed toilet seat lid tyling this and looking at the bottle of pills next to me on the sink. Killing oneself is not hard, it's the justification behind the reason you fight with that makes it difficult to complete. So people kill themselves due to extreme mental anguish of varying reasons and backstories. And thier are others like myself who are just done with existing and repeating continuous merry-go-round. I had a soulmate once. I say had becasue she has been dead for several months and the short years leading up to it were very painful for her. If i had just put my own feelings first and ran with my gut feeling naybe, just maybe she would still be here. And all that pain she went through would not have happened. We would have been happy together, i know it. #life still would have been a struggle, but i know we both would have been content with it as long as we had each other. Bored...so fucking tired and done with this reality. This is not a cry for help or attention. I just needed to put my thoughts to paper so to speak.