I've spent so much time working on us, I've forgotten to work on myself. My problems are not yours, my problems are of my own. I mean not to burden you, but I'm a burden to myself. Forgive me if I am distant, forgive me if I cry. Forgive me if I say I want to die. None of this is your fault, all of it is mine. I need to work on it. I need the time.