Killing Me Or Killing You Why do you insist on loving me, When I just want to die? My suffering baddly hidden Behind the tears in my eyes. No emotions spring to surface, No reason for this pain, No explanation to the feelings That make me so ashamed. I just don't know the reason, I just don't know the rhyme, I don't know when this will happen, The day, The place, The time. I dont know the cause of these violent sudden falls, One moment I am laughing the next I must withdraw. Back into my bedroom with my pillows and my bear, Back into the solitude where there is no one to stare. To hide away and open, To empty out my soul, I cry for no reason, I just long for the toll, To hear the funeral bells calling, To let them know I passed, So I can be alone, Inside my box at last. But no, theres you to think of, You havent left my side. Why cant you just realise, The broken always dies. Why can't you get the picture? Why can't you stand aside! You'd be happier without me, You'd know that if you'd tried. But you wont let me and I know You've sworn to follow if I go. I must fight on to save you're #life, But doing so causes strife. Im hurting you day by day, I see your pain and yet you stay! I cannot speak I cannot stand, And yet you still hold my hand? Why? Go find one who IS enough Someone that deserves your love I'd set you free if I only knew Killing me, wasn't killing you...