Finding Myself Leaves with budding iris green moss and scattered stones Bipolar disorder, boarder line personality, and PTSD. Celexa and Abilify therapy and routine Books, music, video games, Date night Communication and feeling comfortable discovering intimacy trying to be transparent open and honest annihilation of negative self imagery Tree lines brushes with thrones where deer and hawk play Sleeping cat in the window mail on the counter top should be in the trash coffee pot waiting a girl who does not know her age soon to be 33 A psychologist, a psychiatrist a poetry group, coworkers saying good bye to Mother writing about the past says the past is not who you are being able to love yourself, others, unconditionally Finding Jesus but not in a church in the hallway of the hospital in the rustle of the wind in dawns early morning a bird song turning on the shower when asked how are you you say great with a smile because you mean it today is always today make today a good day