Yesterday Yesterday you came by. Yesterday I was not alive but you brought me back to #life. You made me smile. You made me feel alive. My mood went up and down but at least you made me smile. Hours before what you don't know is that I cried. Cried because I was tired. Tired of the things going on. Tired of not seeing you. But you came around and made me smile. I am not happy about the little things anymore but I do gett butterflies when you are around. I sat at your kitchen table and watched you do your thing, it made me smile even if it was for a little while, I felt alive. Why are you the one who can make my day go up and down? Good when I see you, bad when you mention HER. She is my blood but I don't want to be reminded that she excists. I keep wishing for things between me and you but you don't see me the way I see you. If you ever will I don't know but I will keep hoping for more and more. I will not give in to the temptation, I will not be the one who surrenders....I will not.... I will....