Celebrations Closer to the beginning Than to the end Should be celebrating Or at least play pretend I could put on a smile But that's too heavy Instead I'll hide inside the hesitation Before the maybe I could be over thinking it I thought I was just a thinker But now I've driven into a perhaps And i forgot to turn on my blinker Guess the chances are more But I wish they were less Perhaps I'll relinquish my memories They are the reason for all this mess Imagine if your head was clear A blank canvass, a white blank page Would you be happier or would you just search for a way out of your cage I'm intoxicated by the dread I'm drunk on the anticipation This is the minute before the end Must I be in participation