Down These are things I wish to say to you But it doesn't really matter. I'm hoping that if I can just get them out Then I'll feel a little better. I made the biggest mistake of my #life When I threw you out the door. Never in a million years would I have guessed You'd love #life without me more. I can't do this. I wasn't built to be alone. I can't stand this pain, it's taken me Down I don't want to feel this anymore. I can't do this without you. And watch you live your #life. While I'm suffering greatly, misery has conquered me. Please GOD, end this for me now. I'm alone here. And you don't even care. You say only what has to be said so our kids are not aware. You said I have venom but you're poisoning me with yours. You've lied, cheated and used me. Still, it's that, that I want to ignore. I just want you to hold me and tell me you love me. That I'm your one and only and there's no one like me. But you have to believe it too, not just say the words. I don't understand any of this, was it my poison that poisoned you? I can't do this. I wasn't built to be alone. This pain is too much, it's taken me Down. I don't want to feel this anymore. I can't do this. But I can't abandon our kids. So I'm stuck now, stranded in tears. Please GOD, help me now. Please GOD, help me now.