i felt better i stay in my room too much. i'm always to myself for some reason. i don't like the idea of friends coming over since my house would bore them, 'cause all my forms of entertainment seem to be for one person only. and i don't have much friends on my contact list to call and hang out with, which i'll change soon. the only time i ever get out of the house is if someone invites me to go see a movie, or to a party, or if my gf wants to hang out. on friday, the beginning of a three day weekend just started. throughout the whole weekend, i mostly just sat in front of my tv and played GTA V, even though i've already beaten it. but on friday, i just played video games for hours on end and my grandparents were going out to eat for 4 hours. that's okay with me, they don't usually leave me alone, but i'm used to being left alone from when i used to live with my mom and she always had to work. anyway, it took me 2 and a half hours before i realized i was holed up in my room for no reason. so i decided to walk into the living room and actually watch tv or something. i got myself a can of sardines and some salt and a fork, and i just sat on the couch and watched tv just to make myself feel better. but, like, 10 minutes before my grandparents returned, i ended up not really paying attention, 'cause i found myself thinking too much about the new girl at school. i sat there and spaced out until my grandparents came home. the dogs started barking to greet them, and i snapped out of whatever state i was in. to be honest, just relaxing and thinking thoughts made me feel better.