Chasing Memories - Desperation "Akira...." Jin lay down on his couch, sulking as he wasn't able to see her in her company. The security was tight and they didn't allow anyone in without schedules and appointments. Not even walk-in clients are allowed. It has been almost a week now and everyday he tried to catch her however, she was nowhere to be found. There were times he called her, but it only forwarded to voice mail, and his texts only received the usual, 'I apologize but I am busy' replies. He wondered if it was because of what had happened. Well, it could be. Maybe she got too weirded out. But... Was it all a dream? He took the layout on the coffee table and smelled it, her scent lingering and telling her it was indeed real. The scent of cherry blossoms and mint, her own special blend. It made his senses more alive, with everything around him more colorful, vivid and he felt a heat overwhelm him. "Oh Akira...", mumbled Jin, his eyes closing halfway as he pictured her smiling face. He lost himself in his thoughts about her, his heart partly torn between despair and happiness upon seeing her again. so many things wandered within him, so many questions and at that moment he was lost and hurt, he wanted to relieve himself with only memories of what he had with Akira. His hand slowly worked its way into his slacks, easing himself from his current stupor while tears fell from his eyes. Unzipping it, he started to stroke himself, his eyes glazing over with lust as he recalled how it felt to be inside her years ago. "Oh Akira...", he groaned, closing his eyes as he imagined their first time years ago in her bedroom one autumn evening. ~~~~~~~~~~ "Really? It's your first?" "Yes... I am nervous to be honest.." Jin shifted in his position as he wedged himself between Akira's legs. Blushing and obviously shy, he couldn't look at her and neither can she. Their hearts were beating wildly along with the adrenaline pumping in their ears. There is no turning back beyond that point. "May I...?", Jin timidly asked, his hand now working on the buttons of her blouse. After Akira nodded, Jin could feel himself getting hard in his boxers. Both of them just came from university and were just recovering from the barrage of torrid kisses from the library, however, when Jin dropped her off at her house, Akira pulled him to her in a deep kiss that made him pin her to the shadow-filled front door. After admitting that her mother is gone for the weekend, both agreed to finally 'do it', and now, they found themselves in Akira's room, jacket, scarves and jeans on the floor. Shy and unsure, both only knew of their feelings and wanted to show their promise that there is no one else for them. You know how teenagers are. Button after button, he could see her creamy skin unveiling itself before him, his eyes dilating from her naked beauty as he took her visually. He leaned in and kissed her forcefully, with Akira exhaling a little moan as she wrapped her arms around him. Their writhing bodies and searching hands felt each other, undressed and lovingly took each other by touch while the only sounds they can hear are the rustling of the sheets and the little sighs they were making. As soon as all clothes were gone, their bodies moved to their own will. Jin showered her with kisses, his hands touching her breasts as he made his way down. "You... You're so beautiful..", remarked Jin tenderly, looking at Akira as he ran his hand down her chest and in between the valley of her breasts. "I don't want anyone else having you... Be mine only and no one else's.. Please.." Akira nodded, peering deeply into Jin's eyes as he continued on to his descent to her breasts. His tongue circled her nipples, making them crinkle, and Akira can only bite her lip and sigh in response to the pleasure he was giving her. As his hand traveled down to her womanhood, Jin could feel her wetness on his fingers and gently slid in two, stroking her walls as he continued to kiss her passionately. "Jin, I love you...", whispered Akira in between kisses, her fingers running through his hair. "I love you more, Akira.. So much more...", Jin rubbed his nose on hers and gave her a light, playful kiss. "I will marry you one day... And I will make you happy.. From here on, you are my everything.. My only everything, Akira... I love you so much...", he half-whispered to her lips, his eyes deeply gazing into hers. "You're my half and no one else's. No matter what, I belong to you and you belong to me.. Akira, I love you, you understand?" "Jin...", was all Akira could say, her palms at the side of his face. She kissed him lovingly, inhaling the heat and passion arising from them and embracing him tightly, bringing him to close the gap. "I understand... I love you too..", she said. She tilted his face to meet hers and kissed him once more, her tongue probing open his mouth to have his swirl with hers in a torrid, sensual kiss that deepened and got more heated the longer they did so. Jin hastened his fingering, with Akira's hips grinding which were accompanied by little moans that escaped her. Listening to her groans and sighs of pleasure, Jin couldn't wait anymore. He took his fingers out of her and tasted her, getting more riled. He positioned himself between her legs, her scent intoxicating him as he soon parted her moist folds with his tongue. Deeper went his tongue, along with lips that kissed her nether ones, and Akira was glowing in the building pleasure he was giving her. All peaked as he finally found her pleasure nub, and with his teeth, pushed back it's sheath to uncover her nerve-packed clit and with the tip of his tongue, began flicking and alternated it with gentle sucking. Jin looked up to see Akira in her lewdness and arousal, her mouth an 'O' as she tried her best to contain herself and not seem too loose. "Jin--- please--- please stop!!! It's already too much and I might finish already---" "Cum for me.. I want you to say my name and give me all of you.. Even your orgasms will be of me, because of me and will only be for me..", said Jin, his manhood a throbbing appendage that couldn't wait to have its turn. "I want you so bad.. I want to give you all of me and I just want to hear you say my name again and again." Akira couldn't talk straight anymore as her moans became louder and Jin only turned a bit more forceful, his hands and mouth taking her womanhood. Akira finally came, crying Jin's name in ecstasy as she gripped the sheets, toes curled and sweat just broke from her. Jin was also panting in extreme arousal seeing Akira look so spent and as he watched her chest heave up and down from the release; he couldn't resist not kissing her again and again from the orgasm. "Oh my god... I love you, Akira!!", he breathlessly said. His lips kissed her skin which was salty with sweat and her body now released her own brand of pheromone from the foreplay; and it made Jin less immune to their deed. He finally got on top of her and with a look asking permission if he can take her, he got his approval through a gentle kiss Akira planted on his lips. His heart was pounding and he was scared. "I want you to be the one to hurt me.." Jin looked up, shocked. "But Akira, I---" She shook her head and gave him a calm smile. Her hands roamed his body and he relaxed himself, only to be more anxious. "Jin, we can't do this if you don't want to hurt me. This is the only pain I know I will be happy to have coming from you..and I want this too.. So please..", Akira pulled him to her. "Love me and show me how much.. I want you to give you all of me tonight." Taken by her boldness, Jin slowly nodded as he gazed into her amber eyes and saw himself in them. He bit his lip as he entered her bit by bit,with Akira whimpering when he pushed on within her. Jin could feel he was ripping her apart but he stopped from time to time to see how she was, however Akira only told him to continue. He went on deeper and he only can kiss Akira's pain away whenever she'd grimace. Akira's fingers dug into his skin, sending him to the brink of bliss, but it was only the beginning. Akira's walls then broke and her world ripped open, with Jin finally able to breathe from the tension and anticipation of being both one finally. They kissed more, tears in their eyes as they held each other tightly while they let the pain subside. Jin held her and kissed her lovingly, telling her over and again that it was only her he wanted... and he can only feel it, the fact of it coursing through him as he was now one with her. He slowly moved in and out of her, his manhood replacing the pain and vulnerability Akira surrendered. Soon, the room was bathed in their moans and sighs of their names. Fingers lacing and lips meeting in frenzied kisses, Jin and Akira gave themselves to each other while the snow finally fell outside the window, only the heat they shared alive that autumn night. ~~~~~~ Jin opened his eyes as he felt that he was finally finished, his hand covered with his cum. It wasn't as pleasurable as he'd thought and it made him more ravenous to have Akira once more. He took a paper napkin and wiped himself, frustratedly thinking of her as he walked into his bathroom to wash his face. The cold water sobered him, yet it only made it more real the fact that Akira wasn't the Akira he used to know. "Shit. Something does not add up," he though to himself as he took off his clothes and slid into the shower. And that is true. Akira doesn't seem to know and remember him at all and her disappearance after her confinement back in Okinawa years ago was a curious and questionable circumstance. No records, nor any 'missing person' ads? Either it was planned or something bad had happened. "I have to know what really happened," he told himself in his mind. "Akira and I can't live like this!" Jin continued work after his bath and called up the investigator he hired for a small meet-up in his office. Akira is already brought to him once more by fate, yet not the whole person she used to be. Jin had to take matters in his hands. He wanted her back. Money is no object after all. ~~~~~ "Mr. Aizawa, there is a meeting with some person of law after lunch." "Okay, got that." "Also, your childhood friend Daigo Myojin from Myoji-Tech will be dropping by to see you. He said keep all hours open for him." Jin looked up from his desk, a small knot on his brow upon the mention of his friend. "Oh. Did he say anything else?", he asked his assistant Toyutoma. Toyutoma shook his head and lowered his tablet. "None sir, that was all." He adjusted his glasses and looked seriously at Jin. "I hate to pry sir, but aren't your companies rivals?" Jin didn't answer and just looked down at the layout Akira left on his desk. "A little fact that is, but I have to stay friends with him. I haven't heard of his current ventures as of late." "Well.. About that..." His assistant seemed to want to ask more, but retracted. Clearing his throat, he then read once more from his tablet after a message came. "And a Ms. Akira Gojo will be coming also after your meeting with the police." Jin looked up from desk, slowly nodding. "Keep my schedule open until seven." He was going to see her again. Jin couldn't contain his anxiety within. ~~~~~~ "Nice to finally meet you, Mr. Aizawa, please, call me Kunori." Officer Ringo Kunori was a tall, beefy man with a deep, raspy voice and looked like Peter Parker's boss. He wore a good suit beneath a trench coat and a hat. He was the man who Jin hired to go to Okinawa to take Akira's records. "Pleasure is mine, but let's cut to the chase. What have you found out?", he asked Kunori. Kunori grinned and laughed a little. "True even in person you don't dillydally." He took out several documents from his bag and handed them to Jin. "You'll see the hospital records lack the ones on the day Miss Gojo disappeared. It only had until 2 in the afternoon then there's nothing more. There was no police report and her mother didn't report her as missing. Miss Gojo was pulled out from her university but didn't cite reasons for doing so, except that she was to be moving, but there were no other records citing where." Jin scanned the documents he had in his hands. It was strange. Akira was missing but wasn't? Looking at the hospital records, he scowled seeing a strangely familiar signature at first glance that didn't belong to Akira's mother. Pointing it to Kunori, he asked, "This signature, it's different from the ones on the patient log and the logbook of the hospital. Whose is this?" Kunori shook his head. "Came to a dead end with that since the graphologist was having a hard time decrypting it. It didn't belong to any of the nurses and the doctors in the hospital. I already asked adjacent hospitals in the area, but no match." Jin frowned. The signature was familiar now that he looked at it closer. He just didn't know where. Taking out his phone, he took a photo of the signature. "Also, Mr. Aizawa, I have a hunch Miss Gojo was willingly taken away and not by force," "What? What made you say so?" Kunori leafed through the documents and pulled out a photo taken by a CCTV camera on a toll gate. It showed Akira clearly, looking somber. On the wheel was a man whose face was conveniently out of frame and only his hand on the steering wheel can be seen. Who was he? Looking at the other details of the photo, there was a black box on the backseat, a crumpled jacket and what looks like a bag. "This was taken around three weeks after she went 'missing'. They were already in Chiba." "Chiba?", Jin looked back at the photo and took a copy of it with his phone. He nearly put back the documents in their folders before Kunori took them. He wasn't liking the development. "From Chiba bay? How odd.. as if she's like some smuggled commodity, huh? Anyway, is there anything else?" Before the investigator can answer, the door suddenly opened. Jin immediately stood up looking murderous. "Jinny!" A handsome man in a khaki suit, with a white dress shirt and brown leather shoes sauntered inside, his gleaming smile sparkling as he tightened his salmon pink necktie. His hair was gelled back, and he perfectly rivaled Jin in physique, poise and suit. "What's up, Jinny? Long time no see!", he said, clapping Jin on the shoulder. "Still a tight, old man with no teeth, eh? Can't greet me a smile?" "Daigo, I knew you were coming but you could've been educated enough to knock and wait for my meeting to be over," growled Jin. Daigo Myojin looked at Officer Kunori who was now in the process of wearing his coat and hat. "Well, you got time now since your meeting is over," he nonchalantly said. Kunori bowed to both Jin and Daigo, excusing himself for intruding and left quickly, closing the door behind him. Jin wanted to throw his ashtray but controlled himself and allowed Daigo to push him to the couch. "What the hell do you want?", grumbled Jin, looking at Daigo disinterestedly. "I have no time to be shittin' around, I have another meeting coming next."